-=[When i Look into Your Eyes]=-

2011-06-24T18:21:00.002+08:00

you know it's time to loosen the kite when it keep cutting you.

why hurt yourself?

by holding the kite too tight, you get cut by the string, the kite can't soar.

only by loosening, u won't get hurt, and the kite can soar.

it's not about questioning how much effort you make.

it's about are u even making an effort.

why does quarrels arise if effort are being made?

privacy.

2011-06-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

It was a big one yesterday.

Will it brought to Sunday when I'm there?

So clumsy these few days.

Sprained my wrist a little, banged my elbow against the wall and now my elbow still hurts.

What is wrong with me?

24 more hours later, I'll be on the plane, departing to Brisbane.

How are we spending our 24 hours again after not seeing each other for 1 month?

Tickets to Brisbane next month during my leave is confirmed.

How will we spend our mini vacation there?

Anyway, although so much being said, so much happened, I still look forward to seeing him obviously.

So much to say, to you.

ittakestwohandstoclap.

2011-06-12T19:28:00.002+08:00

Us, being human beings, are being prone to changes.

That's the adaptability of human.

When they're in their hometown, they behave in a certain way.

And when they are left alone, in another country, they adapt to the independence as well.

And when they are left alone, with other people, in another country, relationships form.

You won't know yourself, how much this can change you, but there's always perspective of the third person.

One may be wrong.

But if one is remained in a constant environment, without much changes, they tend to realise the change in someone else.

And yet again, relationships form depending on the personality of a person.

Just like how an optimistic person deal with setbacks, versus a pessimistic person.

Just like how a selfish person can survive in the working world better, versus a person who thinks for others first rather than themselves.

Human beings are no mind readers.

They can't read what you are really thinking.

And they might sometimes even misinterpret it wrongly.

So what should we do to avoid misunderstanding?

By expressing yourself and showing people what you really mean.

If one really treasures something or someone, I guess you won't do things to make that someone misunderstand right?

And this issue has got a huge thing to do with sensitivity.

Being sensitive, is really important.

Be it the things that you do, the things that you DON'T do.

The things that you say, the things that you say WRONGLY.

So when you're unable to do that, just accept the fact that maybe that person/thing/issue is not that important to you afterall. :)

Life lies only on your own hands.

You have the right to choose your priority.

Since the world is ending anyway. *cross fingers* of course.

I'm so gonna do my job well, enjoy the world, be independent, and love myself more. :)

2011-06-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

I'm on standby tomorrow.

That time I wasn't called up.

I hope I'm called up tomorrow, only to BNE.

PLS PLS PLS.

I miss him so much, why don't call me up for BNE?!

I will be praying whole day for my call up to BNE.

Either u call me up for BNE or dun call me up at all pls?!

I miss Scott, I wanna fly there to see him like now.

I never, for one second, stop thinking about Scott.

He's everywhere.

Just that I can't see him.

Whatsapp, Skype, Twitter, Facebook enabled us to communicate more efficiently.

But we prefer writing each other letters as well.

He will send me letters, and I will send him letters too!

Many emo songs playing in my mind now.

Make me miss him even more only.

Sighs.

Why is this so tough for me to get through?

I'm not as strong as I thought I would be.

Scott is stronger.

I can cry everyday.

All I got to do, is to think of him.

Never once had I teared so frequently.

AND IT SUCKS!

God damn this period is so tough!

tobecontinued...

2011-05-29T14:01:00.002+08:00

I've changed.

I've became more emotional.

I get affected and get personal easily.

Sometimes I don't know how to control my emotions/feelings.

I've become less optimistic.

And become more pessimistic.

I no longer tend to look at things at the bright side anymore.

This thing had changed me so much.

Although sometimes I feel really awesome.

Like meeting my awesome friends, going to nice places.

But at the end of the day, when I'm alone at home.

I tend to let my imagination run wild.

I tend to think of the unthinkable, and let myself get affected by it.

Damn I should do something about this.

At this rate, we'll quarrel more often.

At this rate, u'll get more irritated by me.

At this rate, u'll tend to have this bad thought.

At this rate, how will we end up?

P.S: LDR sucks.

and i hate being alone.

tobecontinued...

2011-05-24T21:27:00.002+08:00

I received a letter from him today.

It was written on the day that I left Brisbane to Singapore after a day stay there.

The content was heartwarming and sad.

It states the wonderful day we spent together.

It was indeed the best day of this year.

Although he left during early Feb, but we really treasured that 24hours we had.

Although more than half of the day is spent with his friends or with my relatives,

we still treasured each other's company.

The letter also reads how we parted.

I was preparing for work, reluctantly.

And putting on my make-up.

He was there, looking at me.

Until when we have to say good-bye.

We hugged, and i gotta redo my make-up.

It was all smudged due to the tears.

Parting is still so unbearable.

Damn.

And I had to leave.

This time, he watched me leave.

He watch me turn away.

And I didn't turn back.

Anyway, Scott Lee, study hard.

I'll be there in June, and I'll mug with u.

Meanwhile, I can only give you moral support.

One month later, I'll give u physical support!

Loveyou,scottlee.

2011-05-19T15:37:00.002+08:00

What time is it where you are?

I miss you more than anything.

Back at home you feel so far.

Waiting for the phone to ring.

It's getting lonely living upside down.

I don't even wanna be in this town.

Trying to figure our the time zones making me crazy.

You say good morning,

when it's midnight.

Going out of my head,

alone in this bed.

I wake up to your sunset,

it's driving me mad.

I miss you so bad.

And my heart heart heart is so jet-lagged.

I've been keeping busy all time.

Just to try to keep you off my mind.

Trying to figure out the time zones making me crazy.

I miss you so bad.

I wanna share your horizon,

and see the same sunrising.

Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me.

andthenyoumakenewfriends

whatstheretohide?

gettingcloserandclosereachday.

onlytokeepclosetomewheni'mthere.

whathappenswheni'mnotthere

i'monlyanotherfriend.

maybejustaspecialfriend.

whereyoudon'treallycarecuzi'mnotthere.

2011-05-09T23:59:00.003+08:00

One more week!

Just one more week to meeting him, for around 24hours.

I know it's super short.

But I'm contented.

At least I get to see him in person!

Get to hug him, get to hold his hand. :)

Am really glad I went for this job.

It really makes my life easier as compared to holding a 9-5 job in SG.

If I were to hold a 9-5 office job, I think I'd go crazy just missing him.

At least when I fly, I can get my mind off things, and try to enjoy.

Especially now SG is so super hot!

Super humid!

Thank god I will be going countries which are much more colder.

Osaka tomorrow.

Hope nothing goes wrong.

My parents will be worried abt me.

Esp when aftershocks and tremors are still ongoing.

I'll take care of myself.

After Osaka, is BRISBANE!

Omg. Super can't wait.

I'm gonna see him real soon.

Suddenly, despite all shit things I experienced while working,

I LOVE THIS JOB!

IT CAN TAKE ME TO SEE HIM!

Scott Lee,

I still love you so much.

Why is that so?

And sometimes, I felt that our relationship has grown.

Much more matured, much more sweeter, much more loving.

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

And, I really need to meet up my girls!

2011-05-06T17:32:00.002+08:00

I'm heading for Perth tonight.

With 2 crew I flew before.

I really hope that I will have a good flight.

And most probably I will have a check, so I hope I'll get a good check!

Perth, Australia station.

Brisbane, Australia Station.

But it seems so far.

So near, yet so far.

God, I miss him so much.

It's only 3 months.

But the day he left me, is still embedded so vividly on my mind.

I just pray this flight tonight is gonna be a good one.

2011-05-04T20:36:00.002+08:00

Baby posted a video on my wall.

It's about a couple's engagement.

They have been separated for 5 years.

The guys lives in LA, and the girl lives in Taipei.

During these 5 years, they do meet up by flying here and there just to see one another.

But how many time can you have the time or money to do so?

So 5 years passed and they are back, Together Forever.

And now they are engaged.

I find this video super sweet and meaningful.

Maybe because I understand and feel how is it like to have your other half at another end of the world.

Ok, not exactly another end of the world, but at another country. <3

Baby, I might be too sensitive at times.

I might also be easily affected by what you do.

This is because you're constantly on my mind.

Whatever I do, I think of you.

Maybe that's why.

Same thing for me,

without you,

I will not be what I am today.

You make me whole.

And you know I love you alot.

We've came so far, to get together.

And not long after we got together,

we were separated.

And hell yea, it was tough.

It's been almost 3 months since you got there.

People might say it's only 3 months,

but it was already unbearable and we have had arguments.

But, we managed to settle things,

and we learnt to know how much we love one another still.

Let's work on this together.

And I feel that the list is cool to!

Let's try and see whether we can do it!

Haha.

Loving you,

Scott Lee. :)

2011-05-02T18:27:00.002+08:00

And,

TAIPEI HAS GOT AWESOME STREET FOOD EVER!

The Taiwanese are more heartwarming!

At least there is like no language barrier in Taipei as compared to Hongkong cuz I can't speak Canto for nuts!

The stay is super duper short can!

Only managed to visit Shilin Night Market.

And I saw a Taiwanese star.

He's not popular la.

And I experienced my first ever tremor in Taipei!

Pretty scary thou.

I'm glad I get to go Taipei.

And Scott Lee promised to go there with me when we're free. :)

2011-04-26T21:36:00.002+08:00

"No more parties, till after my exams. I partied far too much."

Guess no one does what they say nowadays.

And that includes myself of course.

Haha.

Guess I really have to put in more effort.

I'm still transforming.

I don't know what causes all this in me.

Paranoid.

Insecurity.

Lonely.

I think I really cared too much.

And this time round, I think I really have to free the butterfly.

It'll need to fly around.

Only then it'll bloom.

I guess I'll be happy, seeing it flying around happily.

And it'll fly back to me, when it's time.

2011-04-25T22:15:00.001+08:00

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all

Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

2011-04-25T20:13:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Shanghai.

And I brought Scoddy along! :)

Bought a lot of DVDs back.

- How I Met Your Mother (Season 1-5)

- Beyond The Realm of Conscience (Whole series)

- Big Mommas Like Father, Like Son

- The Green Hornet

- 127 Hours

All for just SGD$30.

How much cheaper can it get?

OMG SO CHEAP CAN!

And their chinese food are so nice!

Too bad it's a too short stay! Sobs.

Baby's having a one week holiday.

Argh I miss him so much.

2011-04-21T01:57:00.002+08:00

I'm back! After one week in Hongkong and the States.

Met awesome people and been to awesome places.

I think it's always the people you meet that makes the trip memorable.

I'm so fortunate to always have a good set of crew with me.

And I know not everytime I will have good crew.

So, I should really cherish those people who are nice.

And I cherished these people who made my Hongkong and San Francisco memorable.

I have got 3 days off.

Slept my way through the first day of my off day.

Too tired and shagged out during this one week.

Never a day have I slept well.

And the time difference in the States is too much!

Shall get my stuff done tomorrow!

Nowadays I keep finding things to quarrel with him.

Nonetheless, at the end of the day.

We managed to piece everything back together again.

I'm really glad.

I can't wait for my Brisbane flight next month.

Although the meet-up is gonna be very short, but at least I get to see him!

I hope you can stop being so emo and work hard.

Both on your studies and also our relationship.

It'll get harder I think.

But we really can do this together.

As long as we have faith.

Everything will fall back neatly together.

We both need to work very hard.

We've only been apart for 2months plus.

And things like this happened.

We still have a long way ahead of us.

Let's strive on.

Together.

Loving you.

2011-04-12T13:17:00.002+08:00

I'm going Hongkong and San Francisco for a week.
I don't know why but I feel a tad bit of sadness.
I feel emo, knowing this is the first time I'm away for so long.

I miss Scott.
I miss meeting with him before my flight.
I miss him sending me off for my flight.
I miss him fetching me from the airport after my flight.
I miss catching up with him when I come back from my flight.
I miss spending precious time with him during my off days.

Yes.
I'm being rostered for a Brisbane flight next month.
But it's so freaking short stay there.
At least I get to see him.

But it's next month. May.
Now is only the starting of April.
Sighs.

Please let me have a good set of crew and let me enjoy Hongkong and San Francisco.
Tyvm.

missingyoubadly.

2011-04-09T01:23:00.003+08:00

I wanna change blogskin already.

This current one makes me look so useless. lol.

Called up for a flight.

Was ok as the load is quite alright.

And again, I have nice crew!

I'm so used to having nice crew.

So afraid one fine day when I meet lousy crew, I will break down!

Given the current vulnerability of me nowadays.

I find it tough to maintain a LDR.

Esp when I'm the sensitive and childish type.

How?

How to maintain?

Anybody got any tips?

Sighs.

I feel that we have different cultures and different personalities.

Maybe this is what made us fell for one another.

But when two different persons are places in different countries, with different culture and meeting different people of their own kind,

how will things turn out to be?

I still can't get over it seriously.

I miss the happy-go-lucky me.

Why can't I find it back?

Sobs.

I'm such an emo now.

Everyones hates me for that.

Sobs.

No.

I don't feel secured at all.

Yes.

You did lots of super sweet things for me till I melted.

And I really appreciate the thought and u going the length to do surprises for me.

But that is just an act of sweetness.

Not and act of security.

I need security and insurance.

Not desserts.

Nonetheless, thanks for the wonderful surprise you gave me on my convocation.

I really love the awesome flowers.

And it must have cost alot!

I was so touched when I received it.

Really touched.

And the little card u sent me all the way from Brisbane.

Sorry I haven't written u anything yet.

I will write to you soon.

I hug that bear to sleep ever since ytd.

And I named it,

scoddy.

2011-04-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

On standby yesterday and today.

Another 20 minutes more.

Gonna meet twinie tomorrow for a cuppa coffee.

Gonna get some stuff as well.

Work on Wednesday, Graduation day on Thursday.

Can't wait!

And then standby again on Friday.

Nothing else I can say.

2011-04-03T22:16:00.002+08:00

you really don't want us to control each other's lives yea?

let's see where this shall lead us to. :)

guess u aren't afraid that we'll be drifting. :)

but nvm, you seem to have confidence in yourself.

let's just see baby. :)

2011-04-03T18:27:00.003+08:00

The more I look at it, the more I feel uneasy.

It's so tough to try not to be a woman.

I hate how we girls think.

I hate the extra space in our brain/mind which makes us think too much.

I don't like to be the one keeping track of every single detail of your life.

I want to be carefree about it.

I want to leave you to yourself, and live whatever life you wanna live there.

I don't wanna care about anything else.

And I'm trying to be like that.

I must restrain myself from clicking on your name.

I should restrain myself of opening facebook, and to your page.

I should stop all these.

And focus on waiting patiently for you to come back to me.

I can do this.

I can.

So don't you worry you won't be having fun there.

Cuz I want you to have fun there.

I don't want you to have any worries there.

I don't want you to feel that you have a burden even thou you are there.

Stay happy and have fun ok?

I'm really fine with that, cuz I really want you to have fun and live your life fullest there.

2011-04-02T01:03:00.002+08:00

2 consecutive standbys, 2 consecutive Japan flights.

And the pattern is tough!

Quite tiring.

Was all zonked out after flight.

Had a super short stay in Seoul thou.

Managed to shop my skincare and cosmetics.

Apparels there are quite ex thou.

Another 2 days standby.

I gotta feeling I will be doing Japan flights again.

Oh no.

As days goes by, I keep telling people I'm ok, I'm alright.

But in the middle of the night, when insomnia happens to act up.

You know you can think of nothing but that.

You wish there's a reset button.

Wish time could turn back.

But reality is reality.

There's no way you can outrun it.

Many a times I asked myself, what makes me so chauvinistic when I agreed to it.

When actually I'm a coward.

On the other hand, a brighter future lies ahead given this decision.

But will the future be of any difference in Singapore?

If you were to be here, with me.

I won't be living so unfulfillable.

Yes, I visit many nice places.

Yes, my friends are always there for me.

But they has got their own friends, family, and boyfriends.

I can't hinder them much by asking their company, although I love them and would like to have their companion.

It's not your fault that you left me.

I have myself to blame for not being selfish enough to make u stay.

anyway,

you will still leave me.

2011-03-28T20:57:00.004+08:00

Supposed to meet Joanne for some retail therapy today.

But when I woke up, I realised mom was on MC leave?

So decided to stay home to take care of her.

But she seems fine leh.

Still can do housework.

Anyway whenever she's on leave or MC, even when she's ill, she'll still do housework.

She must see the house clean and tidy.

Sorry Joanne!

Hope you have a good and safe flight to Zurich!

We shall meet again when you're back!

Spent my whole day at home with mom.

Nothing done, but at least I rested the whole day.

Shall indulge tomorrow!

I realised I've been going shopping almost every other day when I'm free!

And I'll shop alone!

So emo right? But I kinda like shopping alone! :)

Skyped with him for 1.5hours yesterday night before I slept.

We have so much to talk.

His studies, my work, our lives, and also some random stuff.

I literally can spent the whole day skyping with him!

With all the latest technologies and gadgets, communication has been very easy!

If we were to be in the past, we can only communicate through letters!

Imagine how long do you get to communicate?

And now with skype, whatsapp, talkbox and all these stuff, we can contact one another every other day!

It makes no difference when we're in Singapore.

Minus the physical contact of course.

Which is bad enough!

However, it still makes you emo!

You can talk to him, even see his face, virtually, but you can't touch him!

You can't hug him, you can't hold his hand, you can give him a peck, you can do nothing!

Only able to see his face on the dead computer screen.

And get jealous over the computer screen cuz they get to see Scott personally but not me.

Nevertheless, my May's roster is coming out on 8th April.

Which is like next week.

Pray I have brissy flights please people, whoever reads my posts.

2011-03-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

When you have someone you loved deeply, do you become paranoid?

Especially, when he/she is somewhere so far from you?

Does your everyday life still consist of him/her?

Do you two still contact every other day?
If yes, who will be the one contacting?

Recently I heard of a song, and the lyrics is something like:

"not seeing you day, seems like a decade to me."

So what is not seeing you for more than a month equates to?

Nonsense right?

I still live on, I still live my life to the fullest, cuz I don't know what will happen tomorrow?

I don't want my life to have any regrets.

But indeed, I have this regret.

A selfish regret.

And I feel like a bitch, for having this selfish regret.

But I believe, if you want something, you should go for it.

If not, that thing will be lost to someone else.

Work has been getting better, maybe due to the fact that I've been getting the hang of it?

Realised I've been getting more and more outspoken.

People has said I've changed.

Last time, I am so quiet.

Only when people ask me question, only then will I answer.

But now, I'll find topic to start a conversation with other people, or able to continue the topic and conversation anyone has started with me.

Is it because of my job?

Or is it because I felt lonely?

Either ways, I'm starting to welcome the little change in me.

Will he be taken aback?

But I believe he'll have little changes too.

I've always been thinking this selfishly.

...........

Ciaos,

I want to go work.

I look forward to working, even it may lead me to having lousy set of colleagues.

I rather work.

I don't want to stay at home.

whatifyoustayed?

2011-03-24T20:07:00.002+08:00

Today's set of crew is awesome!

All the way from the top to me!

Everyone is so nice, even the passengers are nice.

Simply made my day.

And to think I so dread of going work.

It's so nice to meet nice people while working. :)

Everytime I get my pay or allowance, I'll have this tendency to shop!

Oh shit I'm so afraid I'll turn into a shopaholic!

I need to save money, for my future.

And I believe this job pays me quite adequately.

But the allowance/pay everytime I get, although not everytime is alot, but still, it makes me wanna shop! I just wanna shop!

Regina, Joanne and Ashley keep asking me why am I shopping in Singapore.

But Singapore is the place I feel home, in matter of fact, it's MY home.

And when I go other countries, there isn't any "me time" where I can walk into any shop and shop till i drop.

At least I can do that in Singapore.

I can shop alone, go in any shop and get anything I want.

Shit.

I'm off tomorrow.

Shall I go shop?

My mom is so gonna kill me.

each day passes by,

i only get more and more lonely.

2011-03-22T01:30:00.002+08:00

I miss:

-you holding my hand

-you hugging me to sleep

-lying on your shoulder when we watch movie

-sharing food and drinks with you

-partying with you

-starbucking with you

-late night supper with you

-having dessert straight after a full meal with you

-you giving me pleasant surprises

- you sending me home

-shopping with you

-jogging with you

-have small sweet bickers with you

-us camwhoring

-the goodbye hug

-your kiss

-your face

-your voice

-your care

-your warmth

-your smile when you're with me

You.

2011-03-15T14:01:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Beijing, and my colleagues were all awesome!

Didn't snap any photos for this trip as the stay is very short and I didn't went to sight see. :(

All I did was indulge in food and massage!

Tell you, their massage is dope and most importantly, CHEAP!

And they come into your hotel room!

Nice country with nice people makes a whole lot of difference!

Going Milan next!

Tell me how broke will I be after my Milan trip?

Lol.

Life has been good so far without him.

But it can be better if he's with me.

I seriously hope April will pass faster and that I will have 2 or more Brisbane flight in the month of May! I don't mind! I just wanna go and see him!

missyouverymuch.

2011-03-12T23:13:00.001+08:00

No Michelle.
You don't have to know anything.
Stop being such a loser.
Time to grow up.
And you already said this many times.
You really should grow up.

And fuck this world.
You're living for yourself.

2011-03-12T00:02:00.002+08:00

First of all, YAY to no standby call-up!
God must have loved me!
He heard my prayers!
And my baby from Brisbane loves me alot too!
Cuz he's been praying for me too!
Got an off day tomorrow before my Beijing flight on Sunday.
Gonna go comex and try to grab some good stuff.

330 training next month.
Give me all your brisbane flights people! tyvm.
People don't want to do 330 flights.
But for baby, I don't mind doing the 330 flights!
To brisbane only. tyvm.

My virgin 330 flight is to Taipei.
Although it's a short stay, still, I LOVE TAIPEI.
Told baby it's only a short stay and know what did he say?
"Never mind I can accompany you to Taipei when we're having our holidays."
SO SWEET CAN! :)

I have to love my job.
Thank you very much.

I LOVE YOU A LOT SCOTT LEE!
and i miss you alot too.

2011-03-09T12:53:00.002+08:00

I'm off today.
With mommy.
She's on MC but still does housework.
Nevertheless, there's still someone with me through today's off day.

Got 2 days of standby.
Please pray either no call up, or call up to nice places pls.
I've done 3 turns, and am getting quite sick.

Had a ran yesterday, and it felt so good.
I would like to learn diving.
So I can go dive around and snorkel around.
But my next leave is on July, and I'm flying over to find Scott.
How to have time?
Hmmm.
Pls give me good long flights and many off days!

Gonna go have my lunch and plan whether to go shopping later!
Ciaos.

我想我可以习惯一个人生活。

2011-03-07T19:02:00.002+08:00

When your boss give you stress, you tend to not perform while working.
This is what happened to me.
Although I did the exact same flight 2 days back.
But never mind.
This flight is over.
Always look forward to the next flight.

Whenever my menses period is coming, I tend to think a lot.
Esp when after a not so good flight, I need a hug.
When I reached the airport, there was nobody I know.
Only the auntie in the toilet concerned about me when I went to change.
She kinda made my day when she asked me how am I today, and welcome back to Singapore!
That's kinda heartwarming actually.
I greeted her with a warm wide smile, and thanked her sincerely.
What warms be later was the bus driver.
When I got on the bus, he too, greeted me with "Hey xiao mei, end work already huh? You must have had a long day!"
Singapore DO have warm people like this!
That's why I always look forward to coming home, back to Singapore.

However, the sad thing is when I came back, took my key, opened my door.
There was nobody at home.
Not only was there nobody at home, my boyfriend is also not around me.
I do felt a little lonely.
Went downstairs to pack food.
The auntie knows me well, as I always buy lunch from her.
The food she cooks taste like home cooked food.

Lunched alone, watched tv alone, and went to take a nap.
When I woke up, I got a call from dad.
I was happy.
At least i slept away the lonely hours, and now awaiting my parents to come home.

Anyway I have a very sweet mom.
Who wakes up in wee hours, 3am, prepare hot milo and a piece of cake for me.
Just because I have got a flight to report for at 5am.
That's really very sweet.

I now know the importance of having your loved ones around you, by your side.
Be it your mom, dad, siblings, your other half.
It's a nice feeling to be able to see and talk to them face-to-face.
My family is coming back soon.
When is your turn?

always believe tmr will be a better day :)

2011-03-05T11:59:00.002+08:00

I don't know why, but I feel moody today.
Constantly feel like crying.
Maybe my menses are coming.
And all the emo-nemo senses are acting up.

Just realised I addressed my boss wrongly.
Feel so ashamed of myself for not double checking.
He is so gonna give me a hard time later while working.
Was called up.

I so feel like staying at home and coop myself in my blanket.
And don't care about what's happening around me.
Just for today.

Moody.
No appetite at all.
Mom bought lunch for me, and i can't even finish half of it.
Menses oh menses, please don't do that to me everytime you're about to visit me.

i just wanna run away from all these..

NEW SKIN.

2011-03-03T12:05:00.003+08:00

After quite some time, I get to change to a new skin.
I think you guys should know the main reason why.
The whole skin explains why.

Yea.
Yea I'm weak.
I still can't get over it.
And I hate myself for that too.

Many people will despise me, saying it's only a short while, how come Michelle so drama?
Hey, ever thought that you're someone that relies so much on your other half for the past one year plus?
And that you meet him/her every day if possible?
You two live so near one another and you get to stay over at his/her place every now and then?
And after being so used to one another, he/she suddenly leaves you to a place which is very far away from you?
Yes, minus all the flying back to SG during holidays, it's only for a year plus.
But, a day without him, knowing he's far far away from me, doesn't help.
It doesn't help in making me happy.

Darn.
When can I stop feeling this way.
I really hate myself for being like this.

fromDubai,

2011-02-27T15:06:00.002+08:00

Went Ski Dubai yesterday and it was so fun!
Although it was cold and the tickets were pricey, nonetheless, many nice pictures were taken there and I really had fun!
Going to desert tour later, and it will be more fun! (cross fingers)

Had a drink yesterday night before sleep.
And it really put me to sleep,very soundly.
And I started dreaming....

I received you from the airport, so happy to see your face again.
You came out with a big wide smile, and we hugged immediately upon seeing one another.
You held my hand tightly, and I said: "Finally, you're back!"
But some how in my sub-consciousness, I told you in MY DREAM: "You know what? I think I'm dreaming. I don't think you're really back yet. I think this is a stupid dream. When I wake up, I'm gonna be so depressed."
And you were like: "At least, we managed to meet each other in our dreams."

It was so nice, being able to see you. In person.
It was also very nice to be able to hold your hand, and feel yout warmth when you hug me.
But it was only just a dream.

How the hell do I know I'm dreaming, in my dream?
And I remember this so vividly.
How now, can i differentiate dream and reality?
Everything seems so surreal, and so unrealistic at the same time.
And indeed, I woke up, depressed.
Just because, you were supposed to be by my side, lying next to me.

From,
Dubai.

ALIVE!

2011-02-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

Kept this blog going.
ALIVE!

Scott has just started re-blogging.
So I shall do the same.
He's in Brisbane, and I will be working.
So in case we can't skype each other, we would know how each other are doing.

He's so sweet.
Always so sweet.
I can't stay angry with him for more than an hour.
That's how sweet he is.
And he never flares at me.
=)
Thank you.
Thank you for putting up with me.

Scott Lee,
even if we're quite far apart, we know our lives are still interluded one way or another.
We just know. :)

L-O-V-E.

training.

2010-11-06T02:32:00.002+08:00

Started training around 2 weeks ago.
So tiring!
Gotta wake up so early.
And every night I will get so exhausted!
Anyway, it's a job.
I need to get through this!
I'll get used to it!

Hong Kong trip is awesome.

I MISS MY LONG HAIR!

roar.

2010-10-10T15:30:00.002+08:00

The Tiger is taking me to HONG KONG for almost a week!
Yes. Leaving in less than 2 days.
And I had not start packing for the SIX days I'm gonna be in HK.
Baby's rushing me, asking me to start packing but I'm lazy! booo.

I got a job, like FINALLY.
Numerous interviews for numerous positions of numerous companies.
Looking for a job is HARD!

October is such a festive season where almost everyday I got friends having their birthday!
And this includes the 3 flowers (yaya, shoes and me) AND our boyfriends! ALL LIBRANS!
And of course many others!
OCTOBER ALWAYS MAKE ME SO BUSY WITH ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!

And Halloween is also this month!
I'm so gonna celebrate this year.
Didn't manage to celebrate it last year due to the stupid rain.

October is also the month that I start work!

Most importantly this month, I'M GOING HONG KONG WITH BABY!

Oh October, how much I love you so!

bestboyfriend.

2010-10-03T23:13:00.003+08:00

I still wanna stress on the fact that I still have the best boyfriend.
I gotta wake up damn early tomorrow again for another appointment to the Maple Clinic.
And baby, is gonna wake up early to fetch me there and wait with me again!
Baby's the best!

From MSN:
baby: i think tmr u bring yr laptop we can plan our itinerary for our HK trip while waiting
me: oh so u're gonna acc me tomorrow again?
baby: -.-''' duh?
me: haha yay!

Seriously, what more else can I ask for? =D

i'm a happy girl (:

joblessstill.

2010-09-30T23:05:00.003+08:00

So.
More than 2 weeks since I last blogged?
Been doing nothing much really.
Passed a job interview.
But my medical is still pending.
Why do I have this bad feeling that something's wrong?
Hope it's a false alarm.
Or I will have to find another job all over again.

My kid is having P.S.L.E next week.
Been giving her tuition almost everyday!
She still doesn't feel the urgency to brush up her work!
Still can go shopping!
How come her parents don't control her?
I remember when I was in Primary School, at this period of time, one week before PSLE, I'm being caned every now and then for not revising.
Kids not have good life! But bad results!
I'm not a professional tuition teacher so I can't really make her results fly like some pro teacher.
I can only help.
Well, I just hope the best for her!
I'll probably just try my best to help her in every way.

Baby's back from shower! :)

bejeweled.itouch.ipad.

2010-09-16T23:24:00.002+08:00

Bejeweled FTW!

Been playing my itouch almost every single minute i'm free.
It's like the only form of entertainment for me and i'm loving it!
The only bad things is that I need to charge my itouch every now and then.
Hope their new ipod touches have longer battery live!

More and more people having ipad.
If I were to strike lottery, I would buy one too!
And one more for baby!

2010-09-13T22:50:00.003+08:00

keeps getting better.

Can't find anyone who's sweeter than Scott, who accompanies me to Tampines early in the morning, and wait with me for freaking 7 hours!
Yes it's the unbelievably crazy queue record holder - Niks Maple Clinic.
I feel damn guilty making him wait for me and doing nothing.
In addition, he wasn't feeling very well.
Baby sent me from home to Tampines, and then Tampines back home, to near Little India to fetch his sister, to Scotts Road for mooncake, back to Ang Mo Kio to sent his sis home, and back to my place again to pass me GOODWOOD PARK HOTEL DURIAN SNOW SKIN MOONCAKE!, and finally back to his home.
He just had his AHM yesterday morning.
And I'm torturing him like that.
Tell me who else can excel him?

Scott always does things that makes me guilty.
He's trying his best to be the best boyfriend in the world.
Is there a medal awarded to him or something?
He's always on the move.
Always trying his best not to disappoint me, and sometimes even forgoing his own interest and own free time.
Every little step taken forward to make things go better between the two of us, just leads to me taking a step backwards, for not being a girlfriend who's good enough.
I'll just try harder.

as usual.

2010-09-08T01:04:00.002+08:00

The interview, as usual, didn't go well.
Numerous interviews, all ended up failing.
How more interviews must I go to get a job.
Maybe I suck.

Signed up for Nike 10km run.
When I can't even run my 2.4km.
Credits to baby.
He encouraged me to sign up, and volunteered to train with me!
10km is nothing for him, but it's a mega challenge for me!
I hope I can get good results for my first time marathon run!
(btw, is it considered a marathon?)
This reminded me of Todays Newspaper.
The slogan for this event was something like "Singapore is so small. Are you sure you're not running on the same spot?"
It was like quoted from someone from KL.
Was feeling rather angsty from this comment.

Finally a successful trip to Niks Maple Clinic!
I got there in a hope to repair my severely damaged face.
Dr. Ong is a pro!
She can straight away prescribe me medicine just by a glance through my face!
I gotta feeling she's trying to chase me away as the queue is unbelievably long!
I WAITED FOR FREAKING 4 HOURS!
She better get my face fixed!
Using the product for the 3rd time.
(twice a day)
I realised my rashes just got worse.
Baby said maybe it has to get worse first, for it to get fully recovered.
Hopefully it's true!

Baby's gonna ORD in 2 days time!
He's finally gonna end his ordeal.
Freedom for every man.

One more month to my Hong Kong trip!
Baby and I spent alot of effort into planning this trip.
Accommodation and flight settled.
Now for the itinerary.

P.S: Baby I love you.

please make money drop from the sky

results.

2010-08-30T14:30:00.002+08:00

UOL finally released our results after a long wait.
4 months? Yah around 4 months.
Results are satisfactory.
I failed one module, but still managed to graduate!
How lame is that?
Anyways, even if I were to retake that module, I won't be able to pass it again.
Yes it is THAT tough.

Has got an interview tomorrow.
Not really a job that I want, well, just try.

YAY!! I am now officially a University Graduate!
Still have to wait till next year for the official Graduation Ceremony.

Went to Niks Maple Clinic today.
Dr Ong was supposed to be on shift.
But when I reached, DR ONG IS AWAY!
Imagine going all the way from Yishun to Tampines.
fml.
Having menses cramp too!
double fml.

i still need Mr. McHappy.

putting on pounds.

2010-08-25T14:42:00.002+08:00

I'm extremely proud of Singapore of being able to host the first ever Youth Olympic Games.
Singapore had indeed done a great job!
Apart from the bad weather that had been going on, everything else was quite well-planned (from what I know).
Attended the YOG Woman's Soccer finals between Chile and Equatorial New Guinea (is it spelled like that?).
LIVE!
Kudos to Jamie who got the tickets for us.

Been watching Volleyball matches live on tv.
And was wondering how nice it would be if I'm able to make it to Toa Payoh Sports Hall to catch the action.
But I can't seem to find companion and the free time to do so.
Volleyball Men and Women Finals tomorrow.
I'll be getting up early to see whether are there still tickets available.
Pray hard there's a few for me and whoever who's going with me!

Recently I had diarrhea.
And it's a high chance from the very thick and concentrated bowl of prawn stock ramen PLUS egg.
Yes I'm allergic to seafood AND egg.
A small portion is ok, but definitely not a bog portion.
Esp not when BOTH portion are huge.
Who to blame?
Myself!

Going jogging with Yawen later on.

youraisemeup
soicanstandonmountains
youraisemeup
towalkonstormyseas
iamstrong
wheniamonyourshoulders
youraisemeup
tomorethanicanbe.
Scott Lee.

love.

2010-08-14T02:28:00.002+08:00

I feel like the most fortunate girl in the universe.
Baby boy brought me breakfast early in the morning for me when I'm still in my PJs.
A call through the phone "Baby, you still sleeping? Breakfast is here for you! Open your door!"
Ok guys, time for you to give SCOTT LEE a big fat round of applause!
Breakfast in bed never tasted so good.
You really made a great difference in my life SCOTT LEE!

Slacked a little and headed to town.
Baby met his friends and I tagged along!
Overall a very fun day!

howisitthatinevergetenoughofyou?
howisitthatmyheartstillskipsabeat?
howisitthatifeelmyheartexpandingeveryday?
justbecauseijustgottaloveyoumore.
you'veneverbeenbetter.:)

long time no see.

2010-08-10T21:35:00.002+08:00

Hello people.
It's been long.
Life had been rather fattening, especially with all the non-stop eatings.
I've been eating more than anything else.
Just ended tuition with a kid.
It's been too difficult to teach her.
She doesn't understand what I'm trying to tell her, needless to say, what I'm trying to teach her.
She's an hyperactive child.
I'm not trained to deal with this kind of child.
So I shall just end my tuition for her.
Hope the new teacher she had can teach her with patience!

Interviews had been bad, regardless of any kind of interviews.
I can't seem to get any job!
Now with only one tuition kid left, and Liquids Cafe more or less will not gonna have me as their part-timer, (i deduced it from the fact that they're gonna have a discussion of which part-timer to hold on to since the management had changed), I'm gonna eat grass.
So, please let me get a job soon.
I still need to have money for my Hong Kong trip in October!

Just saw a video on Facebook.
About a guy without any limbs, making a difference in this world.
He's a motivator, who gives talk about life.
He motivates people and give them hope.
He said something like this: "Girls, each and every one of you is special in a way. No one is superior than another. We're born for a reason. Find that reason, and live with the reason."
It made a great impact on me.
I've always been feeling inferior about myself.
His wisdom of life has definitely gave me hope.
He's one without limbs!
I guess I shall live my life for a reason.
And I'm one special girl! :)

And, I came to a conclusion about a fact/myth.
That girls really CAN multi-task! :)

Scottlee,
thanksforthedinner
thanksforthesupper
thanksfortheride
thanksforthesupport
thanksforthejacket
thanksforeverything

hadabadday,

2010-07-27T22:20:00.002+08:00

i need a blue sky holiday

Yes. I really did had a bad bad day.
Bad things, come, just keep coming.
Haunt me for today, and leave me out from tomorrow.
There's still one and a half more hours to a brand new day.
Just, come.

Certain stuff unable to rant it here.
I don't mean to offend anyone.
But guess that's just my nature.

Menses still suck no matter how hard I try to accept it.
Suck even more when you make me easily agitated.
Suck to the core when I'm deprived of the very much needed party.
SUCK!
I'm supposed to party all night tomorrow.
But my cramps make me very uncomfortable.
The cramps plus the bloated-ness.
Argh! Major fuck.

And now I can't update my status in Facebook!

Tomorrow will be a better day no matter what.
I just know it will.

Scott Lee, good luck for your German test.

loveme,loveyou.

2010-07-25T17:26:00.002+08:00

I got another interview tomorrow.
It's a 3-month contract.
Hope I get the job.
Then I'll have money to spend for my CONFIRMED Hong Kong trip.
Yes. CONFIRMED!!
WOOHOO.

Thanks so much Scott Lee.
You always make my wishes come true!! :)

Baby had just graduated from his diving course and I'm so proud of him!
Make me wanna learn recreational diving!

The weather's abit crazy in Singapore and hopes it turns better!
Everywhere, there are natural disasters, and attacks.
Where is the peaceful world we once had?
Give people a chance to live.
To the fullest.

where's my job?

2010-07-20T01:21:00.002+08:00

Had been sending resumes.
But I can't seem to get a response.
Guess this is the harsh reality of the economy!
There are jobs, but I can't seem to get the ones I'm interested in!

Hong Kong trip is on its stage to be finalised.
After we manage to find a hotel with acceptable rate and in a convenient place.
And now another problem.
I need to have enough money for this trip.
The bangkok trip more or less drained everything out of me.
NEED A JOB SOON! (of cuz need to approve my leave for the hong kong trip!)
*prays hard*

Scott is in camp, staying in, due to his course.
Hope he's doing fine in there.
Brave through all the storms alright baby?
You'll be fine.
All the best!

Meeting Yawen & Shuchen tomorrow.
We;ll be going to town!
MISS THEM LOTS!

And I also miss regina and joanne after the bkk trip!
MEET UP PLS.

bangkok.

2010-07-13T23:48:00.002+08:00

Had a wonderful wonderful trip at Bangkok.
Although I came back with food poisoning.
With diarrhea & vomiting.
At least the jab works a little.
And I'm recovering.
But definitely not recovering from withdrawal syndrome.

As you can see from my pictures.
I had a fantastically fun 4 days with Regina, Joanne and of course my one and only baby Scott.
Love almost everything we did there!
All the shoppings, all the nice food, and all the tuk-tuks!

Am craving for more getaways.
Shall plan one soon. :)

If I have nothing better to do, I shall post in detail of my trip.
Still vividly embedded into my mind. :)

scottlee
iloveyou

BANGKOK

2010-07-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

I'm flying off in 8 hours time!
After a freaking long time.
I'm finally gonna have my getaway!
Although it's only Bangkok, IT'S STILL A GETAWAY!
At least it's a CHEAP getaway!

My luggage is freaking huge.
And so empty.
So gonna load it with stuff worth of 20kg!

happy8thmonthtooscottybaby :)

ECLIPSE IS OUT!

2010-07-02T02:24:00.004+08:00

ECLIPSE IS OUT IN CINEMAS!
I WILL JUST FORGO EVERYTHING AND WATCH THIS MOVIE!

Had always been a Twilight fan.
Read the book numerous times.
Can memorise every single detail!
Of course, I don't expect the movie to be better than the book.
So, my hopes are not high!
Twilight & New Moon is nice, but not as fantastic as the book.
So, i reckon Eclipse would be the same.
But still, I WANT TO WATCH!
SCOTT LEE WATCH WITH ME I DON'T CARE!

Went JB with Scott and his friends.
Malaysia road is scary!
We drove against the traffic unknowingly!
How can?!
On contrary, stuff there is cheap!
The seafood is freaking cheap!
A&W's cheap too!
Everything is cheap!

Bangkok trip is confirmed!
Like finally!
Big special thanks Twinie and Joanne for taking care of everything!
Jetting off next Wednesday!
It shall be a frolic and fruitful one! :)
CAN'T WAIT!

scottlee
i'mstillsoinlovewithyou :)

exhausting.

2010-06-30T01:07:00.002+08:00

Realised I haven't been blogging as usual as I always do.
Ain't particularly busy in anything.
Just that there's many other stuff more worth doing!

Alright.
Many stuff happened recently.
Just had a FA gathering with Kai An leaving for Aussie, like tomorrow!
Dinner-ed at Vivo & drank at Liquids for Suban's farewell, which is like tomorrow too!
Everyone's leaving.
Sooner or later, everyone will leave Liquids.
And will not know when is the next meet up gonna be,
Meanwhile, we shall enjoy our last few moments in Liquids and make it memorable!
Liquids definitely has got the best colleagues and bosses!
Many many friendships are formed in Liquids.
And we shall stay together as one!

World-cup is getting interesting!
The round of 16 is coming to an end soon.
And it'll be the quarter finals!
That's really fast.

Have a week packed with activities.
And finally the Bangkok trip is finalised!
It's so gonna be a fun trip with fun people!

.moderatewednesday.

2010-06-23T18:33:00.004+08:00

Just got home from work.
Stinking now.
Now, there isn't any 7:30pm matches in WC.
What am I gonna do?

Scott slept thru the heavy rain while I'm working!
And he's still snuggling under his blankies now.
Waiting for dinner to be served.
He deserved this anyway.
Since he's been worn out from work everyday.
Let him have ample rest!

My Bakerzin vouchers are gonna expire soon.
Shall use it soon!

And why can't I STOP having cravings for Koi?
Must be all Twinie's and Jamie's fault!
Tweeting abt Koi all the time!

Anyone up for mambo with me tonight? :(
Been so long since I last mambo-ed. :(

needstogetajobseriously
towardoffalltheunnecessaryexpectations
fuckyoumichelle.

enjoying life.

2010-06-22T21:53:00.002+08:00

Yes.
I've been enjoying life.
Met up with Yawen and Shuchen.
Met up with twinie and Joanne.
Meet up with NCG + Jamie.
Soon, hopefully, another last gathering before Kai An flies!

Been seeing my dearest almost every other day.
Talked about practically everything under the sun/moon/stars.
Loved chatting and chilling with him.

Have been hardworking and sourcing for a job.
I hope I can get a job that I like.

Will be having a getaway within a few months time!
It will definitely be a memorable one!
And of cuz, with the right people.

Cravings for Koi, ice-cream and movies.
I can't seem to get enough of dating Scott. :)

Good night Scott Lee and have a tight sleep.
Will be asking the stars to watch over you! <3

worldcup.

2010-06-18T22:28:00.001+08:00

Have been spending most of my nights watching the 3 matches.
K.O-ed normally during the half-time of the last match.
Nonetheless, many unexpected wins from unexpected countries.
The most recent case?
Spain & Swiss.
The other dismay?
Germany & Serbia.
Oh well what I can say is that, the ball is round.
Anything can REALLY happen at anytime.
This is how interesting soccer is!

Alright I'm blogging in Scott's place again.
He's dozing off again.
And it's only the first-half of USA vs Slovenia.
Tired tired Scott.
He's always tired when he comes back from camp everyday.
Seriously counting down to his ORD!

My rashes on my face is really bad.
And I don't know the cause of it.
Thought of going to consult some professionals but I don't have any money.
So people, still acknowledge me the fugly lady.

Friends say that maybe it's because of the lack of sleep.
But I've really been sleeping enough everyday.
Sometimes even more than 8 hours!
And I don't really sleep late.
Some of the 2.30am matches I don't watch!
And I drank lots and lots of water everyday!
My face and lips are still dry!
I did put moisturizer!
Sighs.
Health, health and health.
Somethings dead wrong about my health.

SCOTT LEE I HUNGRY!

denpendable.

2010-06-16T21:05:00.002+08:00

I feel so restless.
And so empty.
I think I have ulcer in my throat.
And I'm really feeling heaty.

Scott's still in field camp.
Poor boy.

Worked today.
Quite busy!
Why is it I'm on shift, it's always busy?
Nonetheless, it's a good sign for the cafe! :)

call me call me baby gimme a call.
cuz i've been missing you, missing you all.
:)

meetups.

2010-06-15T20:54:00.003+08:00

Finally got to meet up with my girls, Yawen & Shoes.
It's so nice to be able to meet given their busy & tight schedules.
Chatted about basically everything.
It's kinda pleasant to be able to know how the girls are doing, how are they coping with their work, and of cuz the ever so interesting subject: relationship.
Girls forever love to talk about it.
Just because the three of us are all attached, we tend to share theses kinda things with one another.
Especially the sweet things that happened between our boyfriends and us.
Ooooooh I love girls talk!

Let's meet up again soon!

Scott's in field camp.
He's been bitten by lots of mosquitoes and unable to sleep well the night before.
Poor lil thing.
I hope he's alright.
Hope he's not ill.
Hope he took care of himself.

It's only the third day of not seeing him.
And I'm missing him.
Guess it's partly due to the fact that I've been rotting at home.
With nothing to do, automatically I'll miss him.

Alright.
I have to start doing my resume.
No time for procrastination!

tired sunday.

2010-06-14T01:20:00.002+08:00

After a week of recuperating, Scott finally let loose and allowed me to feast!
TGIF is spent, enjoying Super Hawaiian Pizza, Garlic Bread, and Wings from Pizza Hut.
While enjoying the 1st match of the World Cup.
It's such nice enjoyable feeling.
Being able the have pizza, watching tv in a cosy room, and of course, with the right person.

Things just gets better when you wake up right next to him.
And you just spent the whole day with him!
Saturday is super well-spent with Scott Lee in Vivo.
Had KFC for lunch at Northpoint first.
And den headed to Vivo to shop.
As Scott Lee had pointed out in his blog, we were quite tired.
Had coffee.
And caught "A-Team"!
At first we intend to catch "She's out of my league"
But the timings are too late!
So decided A-Team.
And definitely not a bad alternative!
Don't know whether "She's out of my league" can be as great as "A-Team"!
After that went to dine at King Louis.
A newly opened restaurant located at Vivo level 3.
It's not a bad chillax place as the renovations and decorations are interesting.
I like how the waitresses are being dressed.
Like little maid, but with a tiara!
So chio can!
How come liquids don't have these kinda concept? :)

After dinner, went to take a stroll, with a haagen daz cone ice-cream in my hand!
Am a happy girl TTM.

But of cuz, Scott never fails to force me drink liang-teh and take my medicine.
Nonetheless, I had a fantabulous date with Scott Lee.
We shall have more of these!!!

I remember what I promised you.
So I'll wait for the day when you have time to bring me to the Universal Studios. :)

The whole of Sunday was spent working.
It's quite busy!

Alright.
Shall get some rest.
I promised Scott to fully recover while he's in field camp.
Oh I miss him so much already.

Meeting my girls on tuesday.
CAN'T WAIT!

thanksfortreatingmelikeaprincess. <3
loveeverysinglethingthatyoudo.
ipromisei'llfindagoodjob.

recovering?

2010-06-10T14:36:00.002+08:00

Visited the doctor for the third time.
This time round with serious migraine and nauseous.
Rested at home yesterday and today.

I'm supposed to work on Tuesday.
But my migraine is so bad I keep wanting to vomit.
But nothing really came out.
I literally got no strength to work.
So asked Sihui to cover my shift.
I feel so bad because it was kinda busy that day.
Sorry Sihui.

Am supposed to have tuition today but I cancelled it.
I'm afraid of passing the virus to my tuition kid.
Scott don't allow me to give tuition anyway.
He says I'll have to recuperate at home for these two days.
So I've been a very good girl.
Resting at home.

My friends are supposed to Mambo yesterday night.
But they didn't go in the end.
Why is that so?
Is it because of me?

And these leads me to a conclusion.
Am I kinda like cursed?
Or am I jinxed?
I seem to trouble people around.
And tend to cock up the plan.

And I had a very bad nightmare yesterday night.
Am I really cursed?
That's why I've been sick for so fucking long?
That Scott has to take care of me.

I know he's been very tired.
And yet he had to constantly worry about my illness.
I feel very bad.
But I also feel blessed.
I'm just afraid that he might get sick and tired of worrying and taking care of me.
I've been taking care of myself.
Just to be able to recover fully.
AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!

God I need your help in this.
Stop making me feel awful.
I've been feeling awful for 3 months.
And maybe, its enough?
Please.

I miss my girls.
When are we gonna meet up?

scottlee
thankyousomuchfortakingcareofme
isincerelypromisyoui'llrecoversoon
pleasedon'tgiveuponme.

theseventh.

2010-06-07T00:45:00.002+08:00

Hi.
Today is a start of a brand new week.
Yet another week had past.
Just like that.

Brother got enlisted.
Mom was super sad.
Can see that she misses my brother damn lots.
It's been 4 days.
My mom still misses him lots.
Brother, take care of yourself and don't make mom worry.

Went out for ZQ's mini b'day celebration.
Minds cafe was awesome.
Or shall I say, King's rendition of Taboo is awesome. :)

I am still sick.
My chest still hurts.
My cough is still here.

iwatchtoomuchdrama.
tillthepointthatican'tdifferentiaterealityandfantasy.

pain.

2010-06-04T13:48:00.002+08:00

My chest still hurts.
The muscle pain is unbearable.
Especially when you need to take in a deep breath.
And especially when you still have cough.
FML TTM.

I seriously hope all these pain will come to an end soon.
I need to work.
I can't work with all the pain.
Please.

Let the pain be elsewhere.
But not the chest.
Please.

still sick.

2010-06-01T00:45:00.002+08:00

And now my throat is hurting.
Did I mention that I've been ill for more than a month?
Yea maybe I did.
MORE THAN A MONTH!
WTF IS HAPPENING?!
I've been taking medicine.
Resting well as well.

Gonna be a good girl and see a doc tomorrow.
I seriously had enough of all the sorethroat, headache, fever and most importantly, the prolonged cough. FML!

There's places I wanna go but Scott don't allow.
Plenty of food I wanna eat but Scott don't allow too!

Chocolates, snacks, roti prata, curry, ba chor mee with chilli, cheesecake, ice-cream, CHICKEN.
When can I taste you guys?!

Milo dinosaur, Koi's Cocoa Barry, Coke, Ice Horlick, Ice Coffee.
When can I drink you guys again?!

When can I go prawning?
When can I go USS?

RECOVER PLEASE!!!
ARGHHHH!!!

assickasever.

2010-05-30T15:00:00.002+08:00

It's been more than a month.
And I'm still sick.
Why is that so?
Is it because I've not been taking good care of myself?
Sighs.

I think I've slimmed down a little.
Appetite has not been good.
Can't eat stuff I want to eat.
All the coughing are giving me abs.
And now I'm having runny nose.
Uncomfortable to the max!

I have a long week ahead.
Please recover!!!
I will stay at home and rest today!
PLEASE MAKE ME RECOVER!

ARGH!

fallingsick.

2010-05-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

Went for a KTV session with Ashley, Regina & Joanne.
It's been so long since we sang.
Had a bad throat today!
Cannot sing to hearts content!

Decided to MJ after that.
But lack one leg.
Have to wait until 9+ den can play.
I have only $2.80 with me.
Either I win, got cab fare home, or I lose, and still need to borrow money to cab home.
Or, I shall not play, and just go home.
Which seems like a good idea.

I was coughing non-stop when I'm with my girls.
I'm so afraid I'll pass the virus to them.
And I can feel my throat starting to sore.
Can also feel the heat in my body.

Reached home.
Felt my whole body aching.
And my whole body was steaming.
Didn't dare to take my temperature.

Please let it be because of the lack of sleep.
I had enough of those coughs for the past month.
I don't wanna fall sick.
I promise I'll sleep early tonight.
Please don't make me fall sick.
Please.

SHOUTOUT!

2010-05-20T22:33:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!

My super long-awaited break.
Before I enter into the workforce.

I realised people can't seem to be contented.
When you're studying, you get so stressed up over assignments, tutorials and of course the dreadful exams.
When you're having holidays, you procrastinate work.
When you're working, you sometimes hate your job, feel tired.
We're living in Singapore!
This is our life and we shall accept it!

Meantime, allow me to enjoy myself! :)
Scott Lee promised to bring me to many many places! (in singapore)
Can't wait!

Mambo-ed last night.
So tiring!
Been so long since I worked-out.
Shall patronise there soon! :)

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!

lastlap.

2010-05-16T01:24:00.002+08:00

I thought I told myself I'll study hard for that one last week?
Ok not as hard but, I tried to study hard!
Worth a clap?
19 May 2010 marks the end of my educational life.
Stepping into the workforce.
Sooner or later.
In hope of getting a job to mark the milestone of my life.

I've been broke for so long to an extent I have to keep living off my parents and my boyfriend.
I feel so fucking useless.
Ok maybe I lazy to work.
But I need to study!
And it ain't an excuse!

How to enjoy post-exam celebrations with no money at all?
And when I say I have no money at all, it REALLY means I have no money at all.
How come ppl don't believe me?

Ok.
Time to study hard and enjoy school life for 3 more days!
So much things to do after exams!
But I freaking have no money!
Hope the pathetic $100 bucks I won from cash-call arrives soon!

Things to do:
- Collect VS stuff and PAY QUEEN money.
- Go ~~bangkok~~ Hongkong.
- Eat scissors rice at Jalan Besar.
- Trim my hair.
- Dye my hair.
- Unlimited shoppings.
- Go gym.
- Go swim.
- Go run.
- Go Universal Studios.
- WORK!
- (...still thinking...)

My cough is recovering!
Zillion thanks to baby!
He's been such a sweetass <3

Till next time,
ciaos!

3down1togo

2010-05-12T13:35:00.003+08:00

The second paper, Investment Management.
It was worse.
Similarly, I just need a 34/100 to pass.
I can't even do 34marks worth of questions.
Sighs.
My parents will be so disappointed in me.
Including Scott.

Thank god the third paper was manageable.
Now time to mug for the last paper.
And hopefully, MAMBO or BUTTER next wed!
It's been so long since I've partied.

Cough..
Cough..
Cough..
Irritating and itchy throat.

Caught back-up plan yesterday night with Scott.
It was nice!
It came up to my mind when J.Lo doesn't trust guys.
To my amazement, I can empathize with her!
"Nothing last forever"
I've been holding on to this line.
But godammit.
He came into my life and swayed my belief.
And seriously, I learnt something from the movie.
"Sometimes you just have to trust this guy" :)
Enough said.

Loveyouscott.
Thanksforthecoughingmedicine.
Letmebelieveinforever.

1down3togo

2010-05-08T21:01:00.003+08:00

Had my first paper of the year.
Management Mathematics.
One of the most well prepared paper. (I feel)

Before entering the exam hall, I got a hinge that something's not gonna be right.
In addition to the escalating nervousness, I had a bad cough.
Waited for the invigilators to distribute the question papers.
Waited for the "Ok your time starts now"
Flipped open my question paper.
Indeed, it's fucking tough!
Joanne did say exam papers only get tougher and tougher each year.
But not to the extent that I don't understand the questions!
Fortunately, there's some sub-questions I can comprehend.
I just need a 34 to pass. Give me that please.

Today.
I'm struggling to get all the Investment Management knowledge into my tiny brain.
The one module I'm so intimidated by.
Not even halfway done revising.

Now not only do I need a good memory, I also need a good analytical knowledge bank in my head.

FUCK YOU EXAMS!
I SHALL SUBJUGATE YOU!

I guess you are the only motivation for me to go on.
Thanks for the chicken essence.
Thanks for the trip down my place,
just to hand me pens.
Thanks for detouring,
just to get me strepsils.
Thanks for helping me print those scary past exam papers.
Thanks for bringing me to play Bishi Bashi III,
just to release my stress.
Thanks for loving me.
You're doing it perfectly.

fallinginloveoverandoveragainwithyou.

study.love.ip man.

2010-05-02T02:20:00.003+08:00

IP MAN 2 is awesome ttm!
I think I can watch numerous times!
And how come there's another IP MAN out on 30th June?
Donnie Yen's not starring in it.
Some other i-dont-know actor.
WTF!
IP MAN is not IP MAN without Donnie Yen can!
Donnie Yen is the man! :)

Mr Sweetie did something sweet.
This is what he wrote on my piece of paper.
Such a sweet pie right?
Ok.
I know it's a lil exaggerated.
It's sweet to come across these kind of stuff when you're trying your best to mug.
Especially when you're stressed over uncertainties in revision.
It just takes away all the unnecessary stress.

Ending off with my 3rd sergeant.
*Salutes my Mr. PTI*

loveeverythingaboutyou! :)

whataday.

2010-04-28T22:07:00.004+08:00

Today's a Wednesday.
Yeeep. Ladies Night.
Exams are here!
Can't party anymore!

Supposed to have revision lesson at 3:30.
I reached school at 4:30.
Left school at 5:30.
Give u big fat smile =D

After school, went to Scott's place for dinner.
YEP!!
That explains why I'm blogging now.
The food his maid cooked is yum yum! :)

Sighs.
Didn't study today.
Exam is next friday. WTF.
Give me the motivation to study pleaseeeeee.
Sighs.

Another revision lesson tomorrow morning.
God pls allow me to wake up on time.

igotaverytiredboyfriend.
whattodo?
blameitonNS.

examsuperstress.

2010-04-26T22:51:00.002+08:00

I'm back to blog again!
It's been.
Hmmm.
3-4 days since I last blogged?
Guess where am I again?
Doing the blogging?
.
.
.
Bingo!
Scott's place!
He's sleeping again.
As usual.
Tired tired scott.
SCOTTIRED!

Not been studying a single during the weekends.
Feeling so fucking god damn guilty.
And I can't seem to find the motivation to study again today!
Ok a little.
Just that one hour.
Sighs.
I know everyone's now preparing for exams.
How come like the whole Singapore's having examinations?
Good luck everyone.

Ok.
The fact that I didn't study at all during the weekends,
is that I spent it with Scott Lee!
It's fun catching up and meeting our friends.
Shall do it more often!

Sat's Phuture is crap shit for Scott.
Shall not comment any further.
People who're there ought to know.
People who ain't there aren't supposed to know.
SCOTT LEE U ARE BANNED FROM ALCOHOL!
FOR AS LONG AS I AM SATISFIED!
I DON'T CARE!

On a lighter note,
Annoying Orange is really annoying!

everymomentspentwithyou
isthemomentitreasure
idon'twannaclosemyeyes
idon'twannafallasleepcuzimissyoubaby
andidon'twannamissathing
scottleeilu.

kick ass

2010-04-22T16:53:00.003+08:00

Caught "Kick Ass" with Scott Lee.
:)
It's an awesome movie.
Both baby and I thought it's gonna be some kid movie?
And pondered why is the movie rated M18.
It's not until we watched the movie,
only do we understand the reason why it's rated M18.
Gore can! omg.
Somehow, some parts of the movie is kinda Quentin Tarantino.
I like!
"Hitgirl" is fucking cool!
If only I'm 10% of her.
The part where her dad died in front of her is so sad!

Scott Lee feels that Katie is chio.
I feel that Kick Ass is cute!
bleahhhhhhhh (in a turn-off face, not act-cute as in :p face)
Ok whatever.
This movie deserves a 5/5 stars! :)

Ah.
It's pouring already.
Nice weather to snuggle in.
Thank god i'm at home.
Where are u Scott.
I don't know what's snuggle without you.

imissmyasshole :)
asinnotliterally
i'mreferingtoscottlee. :)
he'sanasshole!
butilovehimttm :)

wasted sunday.

2010-04-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

Today's a Sunday.
Have been studying a little during these few days.
Exams are coming!
What else can I be doing other than studying?
Yes I heard u guys!
I know I'm a good girl! :)

Have been going out as well as spending quality time at home.
Parents had been seeing me more and more frequently.

Have not been working for around 1 month?
Super duper broke.
Didn't earn much for the last month that I actually worked.
Oh I must start eating grass.

A few days ago, I keep wanting the exams to be postponed.
But now, I just want my exams to start earlier.
Not because I'm well prepared for it.
But I just feel like getting it over and done with.
But on a second thought,
I'm not yet prepared!
Oh man.
This is the toughest period!
Come on hang in there michelle.
We can all do it! :)

*think abt post-exam parties
*think abt post-exam parties
*think abt post-exam parties

Oh did I mention I'm at Scott Lee's place AGAIN?
Blogging AGAIN while he's sleeping?
He likes to slp very much!
Or maybe he's just freaking tired everyday.
Poor him.
Rest well baby.
:)

istillwannasayiloveyou.

ahem

2010-04-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

Today's another emeey meeny mini emo day.
Now I know.
The problem actually don't lie with others.
It actually lies with me!
Haha.
Now then I realised!
-.-'''

Alright.
2 more hours to TGIF.
Time literally flies.
So fast!
One week gone by just like that!
2 more weeks to exam!
NOT READY!!
OMG.

XINYI I KNOW YOU'RE READING!
STUDY HARD!
DON'T READ MY BLOG ALREADY!
:)

So you really don't know why i talk this way?
And say stupid nonsense stuff?
Ok maybe i didn't make it super obvious,
that i want you to come find me.
I didn't want to show the weak side of me.
I didn't want to go find you.
I'm not despo.

maybeishouldjustacceptthefactthattheperiodisalreadyover.

fallinginlovewithyou.

2010-04-14T22:27:00.003+08:00

First of all,Happy 21st Birthday Jaslyn! :)
Hope you had a good time despite all the security shit.
Total shit.

Secondly,
i need to party again.
Like this.

Okay.
I'm gonna say this again.
Exams ARE REALLY coming.
What makes it so special?
It's gonna be my last shot!
As in, after this exam, I'll be entering the workforce!
COOL!
Ok. Not cool.
I really prefer studying.
Maybe that explains why I'm a tad happier studying now den the previous times.

Caught "Date Night" with Scott.
It's hilarious!
And nice too!
Ok the storyline is super expected.
But these stories just move our hearts right?
They HAD to be filmed this way.
In this kind of ending.
With those kind of climax.
That makes it a great movie!

To sum off everything,
Love you J.

the time of the year.

2010-04-11T20:45:00.003+08:00

Well.
It's only 3 more weeks to exam.
Feel the heat?
I'm screwed.
I haven't even finish recapping everything.
I just started my revision.
Well.
Blame it on myself being too damn lazy.

I guess everyone is mugging real hard.
This is the last year.
And I need to graduate.
Please god.

Caught "Clash of the Titans"
It's so "Percy Jackson".
Pardon me, but I know nuts about that kind of story.
That's why I compared "Clash of the Titans" to "Percy Jackson".
Many many people claimed that the movie isn't good.
However, I find it OK.
Very expected and short-quick ending.
But Sam Worthington is *drools*

It's been 2 weeks since I last clubbed.
WTF.
Can I club next week Scott?
I know my exams, by then, will be nearing.
I need not only alcohol, but rocking on the dancefloor! :(

myheartstillpumpsfasterwhenyouembraceme.
ilu scottlee. :)

recovering

2010-04-07T23:30:00.002+08:00

Scott Lee's recovering.
That's a good sign.

Had overseas revision yesterday and today.
Gotta say I kinda absorb a little today.
And for that short 1 hour in Starbucks, I absorbed a lil too!
That's a good start!
Note: It's a good START.
I just STARTED.
Good luck for me.

Have been skipping meals these few days.
I either skip lunch, or skip dinner.
And get freaking hungry in the middle of the night.
And I won't eat cuz I feel freaking fat.
And then I'll have gastrics.
And then I'll feel unwell.
Forget it.

I've been thinking about this one thing.
If the world is really gonna end at 2012.
I would have wasted all my freaking life studying for nothing.
How cool eh.

Ending with,
I'm hungry.
Super hungry.

scottlee.
i'matyourhouseagain.
you'resleepingagain.
it'sgoodtohearthatyou'reonyourroadtorecovery.
recovercompletely,
andibringyougofeastok?
loveyouoceandeep.

stillassick.

2010-04-06T23:21:00.003+08:00

Scott Lee had been sick for don't know how many days.
What's happening to you my dear?
Now you're making me worried.

So on a Monday, I had tuition.
Didn't really study on Monday too.

Today, I went for MSM UOL revision.
At least I managed to absorb something.
Upon returning home, I find no motivation to carry on mugging.
It may be due to being lethargic and tired after one day of revision.
But who will not know? That these are all just excuses.

I'm now at his place.
He just had his medication and is now soundly asleep.
I can see how uncomfortable he is.
I seriously hope.
No.
Pray.
Pray that he WILL get well BY tomorrow.
He needs energy and strength in his camp.

Sighs.
Looking at how sick he is, demotivates me.
I can't study seeing him like that.
Sighs.

On the other hand.
I finally realised the date is nearing.
And seriously I'm still at a lost.
Not only am I lost in IM, I'm also lost in MM!
omg.
I realised MM isn't that manageable as I thought!

ScottLeeJiunYuen.
Pleaseforgoodnesssakegetwellnow.
Ineedyoutobehealthy.
Becauseijustdon'tknowwhattodowhenyou'resick.
ohgod.
ineedyounowmorethanever.

tiringweekend.

2010-04-05T01:05:00.006+08:00

Friday.
Good Friday!
Although small little tiffs arose, we still managed to keep our cool.
:)
Went out with Scott's Judo friends.
YES XINYI I KNOW YOU'RE READING! :)
Had a couple of drinks and I feel bad.
Can't believe I'm so lousy. wtf.
So I didn't study.

Saturday.
Slept till noon.
Woke up for lunch and prepared for dinner with my relatives.
Reason?
MY UNCLE STRIKED 4D.
Yet again. lol.
Went to find Scott Lee.
He's still sick. :(
So I didn't study. Again.

Sunday.
Dunno why, I slept till late noon.
Woke up for breakfast/lunch/dinner.
Went to his place.
Went down to Marc's pre-birthday mini celebration.
It's a nice place and loads of fun!
Scott Lee! I want to play Wii! :)
So I didn't study. YES AGAIN.

omfg.
I have not been studying for 3 days!
omfg.
I'm afraid now.
omfg.

atleastmyweekendisspentsowonderfullywithyou
nothingbeatsmorethanbeingabletoenjoywithyou
iluscottlee
YESXINYIYOU!
STOPSTALKINGOURBLOGS
:)

2010-04-02T14:46:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I feel like an idiot.
Did I step over my rights to concern too much?
Why am I acting like a bitch?
A effing bitch that simply just can't control herself.
When it's unreciprocated.

Sorryforbombardingyourfb.
Whenmine'ssoempty.
Inoticedthedifference.
IshallandIcanstopmyself.

TGIGF

2010-04-02T00:42:00.002+08:00

TGIGF
Thank God It's Good Friday! =)

I'm gonna try to wake up by 8am to go jogging.
I seriously need to slim down before someone don't want me.
Blame it on the fact that he's a effing PTI.
How unfit can he be? *drools*

Am I gonna spend the whole day studying when PTI's off?
Doubt so.
=p

i'mkindacrazyinlovewithmybestfriend.=)

bliss.

2010-03-31T22:20:00.003+08:00

It's so nice to know that SCOTT LEE is gonna accompany me to study given that he's sick!
How sweet can he be? =)
Okay. He IS sitting opposite of me now.
Mugging real hard.
Good job SCOTT LEE! =)

So didn't mange to jagerbomb all night.
Due to some kites being flown, the party can't carry on!

ScottLeeJiunYuen
IJustWantYouToKnowThatILoveYou
AndThanksForMakingMeFeelLikeI'mTheOnlyGirlLeftInTheWorldForYou

misses.

2010-03-31T00:59:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU SCOTT LEE
=)

Alrights today's the start of Wednesday.
I shall jagerbomb all night.

restwellbaby.

2010-03-28T21:11:00.002+08:00

Didn't manage to visit DblO for the last time.
I think the whole of Singapore is there ytd.
Well the 1st half of Rebel was shit.
Appreciating Sharbana and her bf's company for that shitty 1st half.
I shall buy u drink next time we party.
At least the 2nd half seems to get back on track.

Work is tiring too today.
Starting revision lessons tmr.
And Scott's sick.
Makes me don't feel like going sch.
Feel like taking care of him.

I manage to notice the difference between different social classes and different cultures.
Even though they are of the same religion or same race.
And we have to live the the differentials.

You keep getting sick.
It's the late nights + MJ that keeps making u unwell.
I'm not always by your side to take care of you.
You must take care of yourself.
Ok?

SCOTTLEE.
You're not supposed to be sick again.
What's wrong with you.
You need 1 month MC.
Recover baby.
And never fall sick again.

isitthetimeofthemonthagain?

2010-03-25T23:08:00.002+08:00

All the emo-ism is heating up in me.
Is it the time of the month again?
Yes.
Ever wonder why girls get extremely emo during certain time of a month?
Give it to them.
It's scientifically proven that females REALLY DO get sad easily, get angry easily, and tend to be extremely sensitive about issues going around them.
Really. Just. Give it to to them.
What is it called?
PMS.
Which stands for pre-menstrual symptom or syndrome.
Something like that I lazy to wiki or google for the exact term for it.

I can feel it.
Yes my menses is coming.
That clearly explains why I get angry and emo easily.
It's not that I want.
Lol.

Ok.
I gotta mug real hard.

whenitisn'tthetimeofthemonth,nothingreallyhappensorcockup.
whyisitnearingthetimeofthemonthwhereisimplygetemofuckingeasily,
dothingshappenandcockup?
givemeareasontocheerup.
sorry.

life's as such.

2010-03-21T21:09:00.002+08:00

When you think everything you do are all going in the wrong direction, there's always people that are worse off than you.
Nobody can stay happy everyday.
There will definitely be times where you won't feel good.
But nobody will remain dejected all the time.
Look around, there's always someone or something you can seek consolation to.

Just look at the charity show being aired now on Channel 8.
How bad can your life be?
Okay maybe you might feel that you're not in any better position than they are.
Just. Live strong.
Life's as such.
We have to carry on, right?

Look.
Recently there are so many cases of earthquakes and other natural disasters happening around the world.
The world is changing.
And we have to cherish everything we have now.
No time for regrets.

Exams are nearing. I'm still having fun! =)

2010-03-21T02:16:00.002+08:00

Monday
Booked for Bangkok trip!
Wee!
It's finally decided and coming true!

Tuesday
Went teadot to study with loves.
Was a great catch up!
And all the copying of notes (cuz i didn't turn up for classes numerous times)
Tiring!

Wednesday
NO LADIES NIGHT FOR ME =(
Didn't study too!

Thursday
Went to tuition and then dinner with J and his mom.
Supposed to study at his place but didn't!
As usual. LOL.
Went to supper at around 4am! FATTENING LA J! omg.

Friday
Met up with a few of my poly mates!
It's so nice to see all of them!
Almost 100% attendance other than Shing!!!!
Dined at Billy Bombers.
"How to train a Dragon 3D"-ed at Marina Sq.
Serangoon Garden's Liquid's Kitchen to chill!
It's a very nice chillin' out session!
MEET UP SOON GUYS I MISS YOU GUYS ALREADY!

Saturday
Mugged a lil at Central's Coffee Bean.
People, the place there is nice to mug!
It's not crowded (like other Coffee Beans) and the place there is bright (for studying) and it's quieter than other Shopping malls!
Cuz it's a dead town I know.
"Greenzone"-ed with J.
An awesomelicious movie!
Dope shit. (that's what everyone's using right?)

Tomorrow
Working. =(
When am I gonna start my revision! =(

everydayisjustgettingmorebeautiful
it'sbecauseyou'realwaysshoweringmewithyourlove
iloveyoulots
andi'malreadystartingtomissyoulove.

What a girl wants.

2010-03-15T20:50:00.004+08:00

Alright this is taken from some FB account.
SCOTT LEE YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO COPY DOWN ALL OF THEM!!!

60 Things a girl wants but dare not ask for
(i only list down those that I WANT hee)
1. Touch her waist.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.
16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know
26. DON'T lie to her
27. DON'T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.
31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Don't EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.
36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible
41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
46. Rub her back--feels good
48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.
52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL
53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneak up on her and hug her from behind--loves it.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don't ignore her or be nervous around her--everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go. ;D

So out of 60, i liked 55 of them? wahaha girls..... =)
anyway reference:http://www.wotgalswantbutwontaskfor.com and
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/group.php?gid=117316914025&ref=nf

SCOTT LEE!
GOT THE HINT?
NOW DO YOUR HOMEWORK =D

Tired.

2010-03-14T16:06:00.003+08:00

Sleeping at 4am every night really takes away your health.
Ok now I get the punishment of sleeping very late every other night.
I simply just can't get into bed earlier no matter how tired I am.
I need to be online.
Shucks.

12 March 2010, Friday
Venue: Sentosa Resort World, Universal Studio, Pantage Theater.
Event: Adam Lambert's Showcase
Alright.
Adam Lambert is hot stuff.
He looks super hot.
Can't believe I actually can catch him live in person!
I like it when he tried to sneak-a-peak through the glass doors where crazy Glamberts are queuing up to get in.
I like the way Glenn Ong taught him Singlish.
Adam Lambert is so freaking cute when he speaks Singlish!
"Wah piang eh", "Gam xia"
Lol. He actually used "Gam xia" to thank us all for coming!
So cute right?
And then he sang I think around 5 songs.
It's all acoustic.
NICE TTM!
After everything, we went to have a mini tour around Universal Studios.
Of course all the shops are closed.
Some parts inside are even being blocked.
We still manage to have a feel of the awesomeness.
Baby! We must go there one day!!!!!! =)

13 March 2010, Saturday
Venue: Singapore Indoor Stadium
Event: Jam Hsiao's concert!
Another awesome ttm concert!
His vocals is powerful.
He's so shy on stage!
He's so cute when he dances.
He skates on stage!
I was kinda worried that he might just fall!

Ah. Two concerts in a row.
Thanks baby for making it all work.
I love the company.

iloveyouscottleejiunyuen.

the-concert-week.

2010-03-12T01:15:00.004+08:00

I like it when there's a cup of aromatic coffee in front of me when I'm mugging.
=)

Alright.
Butter-ed again, this time round with my girls.
Gotta admit, Butter is packed like f.
And the ppl there are really soooooo young!
Make us feel so old.
Nonetheless, I like the music there eh!
It's sad knowing you girls didn't had a great time.
=(

Tired Thursday.
Keep dozing off and yawning when I'm supposed to give tuition.
Can you imagine?
OMG.
Managed to have a conducive 2 hours of mugging while waiting for J.
Thou I still didn't manage to understand a thing, I concentrated!
That's a good start!
Although it's ABIT late to start.
I'll work hard from now on! =)

Ohya.
Did I mention I WON ADAM LAMBERT'S TICKET THRU CLASS95!
Yes.
Envy me!
It's TGIF!
Gonna head to Universal Studio to catch my gorgeous Adam.
It's a waste he's only gonna sing 3 songs.
Super sobs.

I'm gonna catch another concert on Saturday too!
Jam Hsiao!
Wahahhaa.

Baby, thanks for the Adam Lambert CD!
*kisses*

loves.ttm.

2010-03-08T19:48:00.002+08:00

Wednesday.
Shar managed to find replacement!
Went Butter!
Other than the ever-so-long-queue-everywhere
and the ever-so-packed-and-squeezy-dancefloor
Everything else is nice!
=)
Had a great time with Shar and Qi.

Thursday.
I'm tired like f***.
Went tuition like a zombie.

Friday.
Went Joanne's house and tried to bake a brownie for the very first time!
Of cuz it's for him
Who else?
Hope you like. No. Love the little pleasant surprise!
I know I did it out of nowhere but, I did it just for you!
=)

Saturday.
Super tired and lethargic.
But still went out and meet his friends.
Nice and funny bunch of ppl!

Sunday.
Was supposed to be a fulfilling day.
But mahjong-ed instead.
2 rounds played at his house.
Won $40 bucks!
Wooooh.
But treated them dinner worth $40 too!
Nonetheless, I had fun!
Esp the Bishi Bashi 3!

Today.
Went back to work.
I got a big, fat, red, fugly pimple on my face.
WTF.
He's tired like dunno wad shit.
What happened to you dear?
Sobs.
Always tired bf. haha.

J!
Slp more!
Dun be so tired everyday!
=(

ahem.

2010-03-03T03:11:00.002+08:00

Today's Wednesday.
Where's my night, ladies?
Sobs.
It's 3:12am.
I got work later on at 11.
Why's Sharbana working full?
Double sobs.

Well, CNY is like finally over.
This year's CNY is fast!
People say, life fly by damn fast once you hit 21.
And I agree to the full extent!
It's March already!
Holy Shit!
As many times as I've complained.
Yea. Exams are coming.

Met up with Shoes and Yawen on Monday.
I miss the girls!
We're all busy with our own stuff!
So difficult to find days when we're 3 free!
Where is the triple date girls?!

Spent my Tuesday giving tuition, having dinner with J's family, and guitar session with ZQ~!
I need to start brushing up on my Keyboard.
My guitar simply CMI.
Where are you, flexibility?

Wednesday's gonna be a good good night~~~
I gotta feeling.
Woohoo~

Purchased Jam Hsiao's concert tic already!
*applause*
Yea thanks for the applause!
But a pity it's only left with $98 seats.
#$T%$^!#$%%^@$!@#!#@$@$%#$^

Adam Lambert's coming toooooooo!
Why are the tic not on sale?!
So unfair.
And now I'm gonna get glued to Class95 24/7-365
Just to stand a chance to win a pair of tic.
People, DON'T DO THE SAME THING!
GIVE ME THE CHANCE TO WIN!
THANKS!

SCOTTLEE!!!
WHEREAREYOU?!
=(

ill

2010-02-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

I've been sick.
Thanks Shar for covering my shift today although I know you're dead tired.

Home alone Sunday.
Family went to Aunt's place.
Didn't go as I'm not feeling well.
Feel so lonely.
Esp when you're feeling sick.
Yikes.
Exams are coming.
I'm really gonna start studying.
I promised my family and J.

I wanna get Jam Hsiao's concert tic.
I wanna get Jam Hsiao's concert tic.
I wanna get Jam Hsiao's concert tic.
I wanna get Jam Hsiao's concert tic.
Yes J.
Bring me there.

omfg weather.

2010-02-27T19:44:00.002+08:00

As everyone knows, the weather recently is like WTF.
Yes it's super hot, and super humid.
Even at nights.
You feel humid.
What's wrong man!

It's a stay-home Saturday for me.
Yea I have no life.
Yea I am ill.
Yea I have not started my exam revisions.

thanksforlovingme
cuzyou'redoingitperfectly =)

drugged.

2010-02-26T11:56:00.001+08:00

I really can't seem to get enough of it.
Why is that so.
I'm being too greedy.
And I can't help it.

fruitful CNY.

2010-02-23T13:17:00.003+08:00

It's the 1st time having collected so much ang pow!
It can be considered one of the most busiest CNY of all times!
He wasn't there in the 1st 5 days of CNY.
But he's always here for the rest of the CNYs.

Let's treasure these precious times before you leave me again! =)

it'salwaysnicetohavesomeonetohugyouwhenyouneedone
andyouknowwhotolookforwhenyouneedsomeone
youalwayscometomymind
no.
you'realwaysonmymind =)

life is great. oh FML

2010-02-20T01:09:00.004+08:00

Sharbana.
I know you love me.
Hope u enjoyed the Mambo.
=)

J, when will you start to get not tired?
You're always tired when u meet me. =(
Sobs.

Went school today.
Went off at 12 today.
Missed one bus today.
Waited super long for another bus today.
The aircon in the bus is faulty today.
Reached home at around 1plus today.
No. To be exact, outside my house.
Freakin' forgot to bring key today.
Called dad.
Asked dad to rush home.
He reached around 2 hours plus later.
Meanwhile, slacked at Mac.
Freakin full of students.
No. Hooligans.
I dunno wtf is wrong with them.
Do you pick on me becuz I'm alone and I'm a girl?
Come on GUYS!
Useless shit.
Grow up!
Wanted to start tuition early.
Waited for my student's message.
But it didn't come until around 4plus.
Started tuition at 5 instead of the usual 4.
Ended late too.
Started dinner late too.
FML.

J dined tgt with my family today.
We had a great but super full meal.
Full to the extent I don't feel good.
He came my hse for awhile.
Went to sent him off to dbl O.
Well, at least this paragraph deserves a
GMH.

Take care baby.
You're already drunk.
Pls pls pls take care.
I get worried when you're drunk.
Call me soon.

mambo-ed

2010-02-18T12:45:00.003+08:00

Mambo-ed with Shar, Shar bf, and Ariel.
Phuture wasn't really nice ytd and packed like fuck.
The only thing missing - Scott.

Baby, cheer up.
What's lost is just material stuff.
The meaning that comes with it doesn't get lost tgt with it.
You need not have to worry much.
We can always make sth new, sth more special and meaningful!
I'd like it if both of us go Thailand again and get that stuff! =)

And, i'm sorry to hear about the unpleasant trip.
Good job baby, for being able to keep your cool.
And now you're back, you can more likely relax a lil.
You'll be going there again with me.
This time, you'll be able to shop whatever you want.
And i'll accompany you to wherever you wanna go.

Just cheer up ok?
It's still Chinese New Year and you have not enjoyed! =)
Now it's time to enjoy CNY!
Smile. =)

2nd day. 3rd day.

2010-02-16T01:22:00.002+08:00

Monday-15/02/10
2nd day of CNY.
Was tiring too.
Gambling sessions!!!
Had quite of a luck this year =)
But the winnings are pathetic.
At least i won right? =)
OMG.
I'm getting fat.
Seriously do nothing but eat.
OMG OMG OMG.
Scott is gonna be in a shock.
Aye.

Ziqi's place for visiting cum dinner tmr.
Hope all of them can make it.
It's been awhile since Liquids people gathered.

3rd day of missing you..... =)

CNY

2010-02-15T00:30:00.002+08:00

Steam-boated on Sat during CNY eve for reunion dinner.
Full to the max.

House visiting on Sun during the 1st day of CNY.
Shagged.
Don't know why I can be so worn out.

It's kinda nice to see relatives you've not seen for almost a year.
That's what CNY is for isn't it?

House visiting on Mon (Day 2 of CNY).
Hope it ain't gonna be a tiring one!

yes.
imissyou.
tcJ.