fuck.
i'm gaining weight like nobody's business.
and the most frustrating is that I'M DOING NOTHING ABOUT IT!
shit.
this is SO SHIT.
people, i know that you guys are trying to be nice and say that i'm not fat.
it's just that i can hide well =)
nonetheless, i still gained weight!
in an unhealthy way!

i need someone to motivate me.
no. THREATEN me.
seriously.

on a lighter note,
i need CNY wishes too.

1) slim down
2) slim down
3) slim down
4) slim down
5) slim down
6) slim down
7) slim down
8) slim down
9) slim down
10) slim down
11) strike the 10 mil toto
12) strike the 10 mil toto
13) strike the 10 mil toto
14) strike the 10 mil toto
15) strike the 10 mil toto
16) strike the 10 mil toto
17) strike the 10 mil toto
18) strike the 10 mil toto
19) strike the 10 mil toto
20) strike the 10 mil toto

HUAT AR!!!!!

1) slim down
2) slim down
3) slim down
4) slim down
5) slim down
6) slim down
7) slim down
8) slim down
9) slim down

Gong Xi Fa Cai!
Hong Bao Na Lai!
Happy CNY everyone!
I want lots of ang bao! I'm vroom vroom-ing to "bai nian".
So black.
Not auspicious at all.
Nevermind.



This is better right?
My brriiinnng brriiinnng cap.
So cool!
Now it's an auspicious RED colour!
I love BLINGS!!

To end with,
GONG XI FA CAI!

I AM
- jealous
- lonely
- pissed
- unjustified
- NOT oblivious
- stressed
- wondering.

i know different people has different lives.
but somehow or somewhat there is some similarites between people of the same kind.
i dun think i'm SO SO SO MUCH different from other people/friends around me.
except a little more fugly, fat, fucked up.
but i'm still a 20 year old AUNTY.
ya. AUNTY.
and yet i still have to lead a life of a girl of 10.
tell me why.

sometimes you like to compare me to other people.
but when i compared myself with other people about other stuff that you dun like,
you are extremely unhappy.
sighs.
when can u understand.
when can i have a life somewhat i wanted.
it's not difficult AT ALL.
but YOU are making things difficult.
take a look at the people around you.
you can accept the way they are.
how come you CANNOT accept me?

and.
sometimes i just want to lead my kind of relationship life.

sighs.

Seriously.
I dun have good time management.
Always feel that time is not enough for me.
REALLY it's NOT enough for me.
Sighs.
Anyways, did u guys heard the song played on my blog?
The 1st song is currently the song that i'm f.crazy over.

Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine
I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you Flightless bird
Jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you Flightless bird
Grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down

I seriously feel that the lyrics are a bit kinda random thou.
Never mind.
Just concentrate on the melody of the song & how it is sang.
NICEY!!! =)

Now i got my eclipse.
FULL SET!

WOOHOO~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck.
I'm hardly at home.
And yet such a fucked up day at home.
Yea. I'm in my work attire AT HOME.
How I wish I'm out today!
But i'm fucking lazy..
Nevermind.

One fine day.
I saw a fucking chio ORIGINAL lamborghini outside Liang Court when I was shopping around.
It was parked just OUTSIDE the entrance.
And the car plate was like Sxx1x.
Just a number ONE.
SO CHIO/COOL/TOKONG RIGHT?!
That lamborghini got a "saman" for illegal parking!
But I dun think the owner fucking care cuz he/she can afford a lamborghini, WHO FUCKING CARES THE FINE??



On new year's eve.
Met up with all my loves.
We didnt get a group photo thou.
Sucks.



As usual.
I'm STILL very into Twilight.


As usual.
I'm STILL very into Edward Cullen AND Robert Pattinson.


Okay.
My darling please call me soon if you happen to be taking a break to smoke.
I need you to pamper me from all the stress at home.

As usual.
I'm like so crazy over Twilight/New moon/Eclipse/Breaking Dawn.
Okay.
It's Edward Cullen i admit.

Sometimes i just wonder.
Why can't i have the simplest thing that i wanted.
Those things are so simple that any other people wouldn't notice that they have it.
But i just don't have it.
It's just so simple....
Sighs..

I thought I'm old enough to live my own life.
I'm not doing anything illegal.
I'm not doing anything against my morale.
I'm not doing anything that is shameful.

I'm doing things that people had already had done.
I'm doing things that will make me happy.
I'm doing things that I SHOULD be doing at my age.

ARGH.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SO BEING CONTROLLED AND I DON'T LIKE THIS FEELING.
WHY MUST EVERYONE AROUND ME CONTROL ME!!!!!!!!

i want eclipse.
i want eclipse.
i want eclipse!!!

ok Michelle stop it.

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!

why am i so stupid?!

how come i didn't but the whole set of books when i first boought twilight?!
how come i didn't continue buy eclipse when i bought new moon!
shit.

and now i have to skip eclipse and continue my breaking dawn.
LUCKILY I GOT BREAKING DAWN.
omg.
everybody is crazy.

I WANT MY ECLIPSE!

Ok.
I know it's abit late to like wish everyone Happy New Year.
But I'm going to wish all of you Happy New Year anyway!
=)

Firsly.
A recap of what I had done during the last days of 2008.
TWILIGHT!!!
1st I watched the show.
Den I was instantly mesmorised by Edward/Robert.
And so I become a vampire yearning so much for his blood.
So I bought the twilight novel.
Which everyone says that the novel is better.
Ok.
Good.
At least when I read this novel I can know who to picture with.
*chuckles*
After I started reading Twilight.
I become some kind of like addicted.
It's like Edward's my brand of heroin.
*woohoo*
And so I chiong-ed for New Moon.
And oh great.
I CAN'T FIND ECLIPSE!
This is making me insane.

Okok.
Other den those novels.
I bought Twilight's soundtrack!
Ok I know it's kind of like a waste of money.
But imagine you are reading Twilight.
And listening to the soundtrack.
OH MY GOD YOU'RE MAKING YOUR OWN TWILIGHT MOVIE!
Except for "Bella".
You girls should know WHO shld be taking over her place?
HAHAHAHHAHA.

Alright.
Enough Twilight.

Can I make wished for 2009?
Please?

1) Eclipse Novel.
2) Breaking Dawn Novel.
3) New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn MOVIE!
4) Twilight DVD.
5) EDWARD CULLEN.
(ok do i just say STOP saying abt Twilight?)
6) Be smarter.
7) Be more hardworking.
8) Hope can strike 4D/toto.
9) Get my own car.
10) Be in love with my own Edward(laogong) forever.

I LOVE YOU GUYS!
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!
I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN!
surprising, i like Carlisle Cullen too!
OH MY GOD.