Tuesday, April 26, 2011
"No more parties, till after my exams. I partied far too much."
And that includes myself of course.
Haha.
Guess I really have to put in more effort.
I'm still transforming.
I don't know what causes all this in me.
Paranoid.
Insecurity.
Lonely.
I think I really cared too much.
And this time round, I think I really have to free the butterfly.
It'll need to fly around.
Only then it'll bloom.
I guess I'll be happy, seeing it flying around happily.
And it'll fly back to me, when it's time.
waitingforyou...♥ 9:36 PM
Monday, April 25, 2011
I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all
Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it
And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.
I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss
All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all
Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it
And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.
I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss
All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.
waitingforyou...♥ 10:15 PM
Just came back from Shanghai.
And I brought Scoddy along! :)
Bought a lot of DVDs back.
- How I Met Your Mother (Season 1-5)
- Beyond The Realm of Conscience (Whole series)
- Big Mommas Like Father, Like Son
- The Green Hornet
- 127 Hours
All for just SGD$30.
How much cheaper can it get?
OMG SO CHEAP CAN!
And their chinese food are so nice!
Too bad it's a too short stay! Sobs.
Baby's having a one week holiday.
Argh I miss him so much.
waitingforyou...♥ 8:13 PM
Thursday, April 21, 2011
I'm back! After one week in Hongkong and the States.Met awesome people and been to awesome places.
I think it's always the people you meet that makes the trip memorable.
I'm so fortunate to always have a good set of crew with me.
And I know not everytime I will have good crew.
So, I should really cherish those people who are nice.
And I cherished these people who made my Hongkong and San Francisco memorable.
<3
I have got 3 days off.
Slept my way through the first day of my off day.
Too tired and shagged out during this one week.
Never a day have I slept well.
And the time difference in the States is too much!
Shall get my stuff done tomorrow!
Nowadays I keep finding things to quarrel with him.
Nonetheless, at the end of the day.
We managed to piece everything back together again.
I'm really glad.
I can't wait for my Brisbane flight next month.
Although the meet-up is gonna be very short, but at least I get to see him!
I hope you can stop being so emo and work hard.
Both on your studies and also our relationship.
It'll get harder I think.
But we really can do this together.
As long as we have faith.
Everything will fall back neatly together.
We both need to work very hard.
We've only been apart for 2months plus.
And things like this happened.
We still have a long way ahead of us.
Let's strive on.
Together.
Loving you.
waitingforyou...♥ 1:57 AM
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
I'm going Hongkong and San Francisco for a week.I don't know why but I feel a tad bit of sadness.
I feel emo, knowing this is the first time I'm away for so long.
I miss Scott.
I miss meeting with him before my flight.
I miss him sending me off for my flight.
I miss him fetching me from the airport after my flight.
I miss catching up with him when I come back from my flight.
I miss spending precious time with him during my off days.
Yes.
I'm being rostered for a Brisbane flight next month.
But it's so freaking short stay there.
At least I get to see him.
But it's next month. May.
Now is only the starting of April.
Sighs.
Please let me have a good set of crew and let me enjoy Hongkong and San Francisco.
Tyvm.
missingyoubadly.
waitingforyou...♥ 1:17 PM
Saturday, April 09, 2011
I wanna change blogskin already.This current one makes me look so useless. lol.
Called up for a flight.
Was ok as the load is quite alright.
And again, I have nice crew!
I'm so used to having nice crew.
So afraid one fine day when I meet lousy crew, I will break down!
Given the current vulnerability of me nowadays.
I find it tough to maintain a LDR.
Esp when I'm the sensitive and childish type.
How?
How to maintain?
Anybody got any tips?
Sighs.
I feel that we have different cultures and different personalities.
Maybe this is what made us fell for one another.
But when two different persons are places in different countries, with different culture and meeting different people of their own kind,
how will things turn out to be?
I still can't get over it seriously.
I miss the happy-go-lucky me.
Why can't I find it back?
Sobs.
I'm such an emo now.
Everyones hates me for that.
Sobs.
No.
I don't feel secured at all.
Yes.
You did lots of super sweet things for me till I melted.
And I really appreciate the thought and u going the length to do surprises for me.
But that is just an act of sweetness.
Not and act of security.
I need security and insurance.
Not desserts.
Nonetheless, thanks for the wonderful surprise you gave me on my convocation.
I really love the awesome flowers.
And it must have cost alot!
I was so touched when I received it.
Really touched.
And the little card u sent me all the way from Brisbane.
Sorry I haven't written u anything yet.
I will write to you soon.
I hug that bear to sleep ever since ytd.
And I named it,
scoddy.
waitingforyou...♥ 1:23 AM
Monday, April 04, 2011
On standby yesterday and today.Another 20 minutes more.
Gonna meet twinie tomorrow for a cuppa coffee.
Gonna get some stuff as well.
Work on Wednesday, Graduation day on Thursday.
Can't wait!
And then standby again on Friday.
Nothing else I can say.
waitingforyou...♥ 11:38 PM
Sunday, April 03, 2011
you really don't want us to control each other's lives yea?let's see where this shall lead us to. :)
guess u aren't afraid that we'll be drifting. :)
but nvm, you seem to have confidence in yourself.
let's just see baby. :)
waitingforyou...♥ 10:16 PM
The more I look at it, the more I feel uneasy.
It's so tough to try not to be a woman.
I hate how we girls think.
I hate the extra space in our brain/mind which makes us think too much.
I don't like to be the one keeping track of every single detail of your life.
I want to be carefree about it.
I want to leave you to yourself, and live whatever life you wanna live there.
I don't wanna care about anything else.
And I'm trying to be like that.
I must restrain myself from clicking on your name.
I should restrain myself of opening facebook, and to your page.
I should stop all these.
And focus on waiting patiently for you to come back to me.
I can do this.
I can.
So don't you worry you won't be having fun there.
Cuz I want you to have fun there.
I don't want you to have any worries there.
I don't want you to feel that you have a burden even thou you are there.
Stay happy and have fun ok?
I'm really fine with that, cuz I really want you to have fun and live your life fullest there.
waitingforyou...♥ 6:27 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2011
2 consecutive standbys, 2 consecutive Japan flights.And the pattern is tough!
Quite tiring.
Was all zonked out after flight.
Had a super short stay in Seoul thou.
Managed to shop my skincare and cosmetics.
Apparels there are quite ex thou.
Another 2 days standby.
I gotta feeling I will be doing Japan flights again.
Oh no.
As days goes by, I keep telling people I'm ok, I'm alright.
But in the middle of the night, when insomnia happens to act up.
You know you can think of nothing but that.
You wish there's a reset button.
Wish time could turn back.
But reality is reality.
There's no way you can outrun it.
Many a times I asked myself, what makes me so chauvinistic when I agreed to it.
When actually I'm a coward.
On the other hand, a brighter future lies ahead given this decision.
But will the future be of any difference in Singapore?
If you were to be here, with me.
I won't be living so unfulfillable.
Yes, I visit many nice places.
Yes, my friends are always there for me.
But they has got their own friends, family, and boyfriends.
I can't hinder them much by asking their company, although I love them and would like to have their companion.
It's not your fault that you left me.
I have myself to blame for not being selfish enough to make u stay.
anyway,
you will still leave me.
waitingforyou...♥ 1:03 AM
MICHELLE ♥
Welcome To Michelle's place.Libran.
22.
Working.
That's all you need to know about me.
THOUGHTS ♥
Being alone can be quite a serenity.You get things done cuz you're lonely.
You get a piece of yourself.
Have time to do your stuff.
But still, i prefer having you by my side.
Targets ♥
Earn more money.Expand my wardrobe.
Save up.
Do well in my job.
Get a diving license.
Go dive in beautiful places.
Be more independent.
Be more healthy.
Wait for him to come back to me.
SAYS ♥
say what you wanna say.thank you.
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Flying all around the world.
Looking at the bright blue sky.
Hey! We're looking at the same sky.
Nonetheless,
I really miss you ...
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