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Monday, March 28, 2011
Supposed to meet Joanne for some retail therapy today.
But when I woke up, I realised mom was on MC leave?
So decided to stay home to take care of her.
But she seems fine leh.
Still can do housework.
Anyway whenever she's on leave or MC, even when she's ill, she'll still do housework.
She must see the house clean and tidy.

Sorry Joanne!
Hope you have a good and safe flight to Zurich!
We shall meet again when you're back!

Spent my whole day at home with mom.
Nothing done, but at least I rested the whole day.

Shall indulge tomorrow!
I realised I've been going shopping almost every other day when I'm free!
And I'll shop alone!
So emo right? But I kinda like shopping alone! :)

Skyped with him for 1.5hours yesterday night before I slept.
We have so much to talk.
His studies, my work, our lives, and also some random stuff.
I literally can spent the whole day skyping with him!
With all the latest technologies and gadgets, communication has been very easy!
If we were to be in the past, we can only communicate through letters!
Imagine how long do you get to communicate?
And now with skype, whatsapp, talkbox and all these stuff, we can contact one another every other day!
It makes no difference when we're in Singapore.
Minus the physical contact of course.
Which is bad enough!

However, it still makes you emo!
You can talk to him, even see his face, virtually, but you can't touch him!
You can't hug him, you can't hold his hand, you can give him a peck, you can do nothing!
Only able to see his face on the dead computer screen.
And get jealous over the computer screen cuz they get to see Scott personally but not me.

Nevertheless, my May's roster is coming out on 8th April.
Which is like next week.
Pray I have brissy flights please people, whoever reads my posts.


waitingforyou...♥ 8:57 PM

Sunday, March 27, 2011
When you have someone you loved deeply, do you become paranoid?
Especially, when he/she is somewhere so far from you?
Does your everyday life still consist of him/her?
Do you two still contact every other day?
If yes, who will be the one contacting?

Recently I heard of a song, and the lyrics is something like:
"not seeing you day, seems like a decade to me."
So what is not seeing you for more than a month equates to?
Nonsense right?
I still live on, I still live my life to the fullest, cuz I don't know what will happen tomorrow?
I don't want my life to have any regrets.
But indeed, I have this regret.
A selfish regret.
And I feel like a bitch, for having this selfish regret.
But I believe, if you want something, you should go for it.
If not, that thing will be lost to someone else.

Work has been getting better, maybe due to the fact that I've been getting the hang of it?
Realised I've been getting more and more outspoken.
People has said I've changed.
Last time, I am so quiet.
Only when people ask me question, only then will I answer.
But now, I'll find topic to start a conversation with other people, or able to continue the topic and conversation anyone has started with me.
Is it because of my job?
Or is it because I felt lonely?
Either ways, I'm starting to welcome the little change in me.
Will he be taken aback?
But I believe he'll have little changes too.

I've always been thinking this selfishly.
...........

Ciaos,
I want to go work.
I look forward to working, even it may lead me to having lousy set of colleagues.
I rather work.
I don't want to stay at home.


whatifyoustayed?

waitingforyou...♥ 11:42 PM

Thursday, March 24, 2011
Today's set of crew is awesome!
All the way from the top to me!
Everyone is so nice, even the passengers are nice.
Simply made my day.
And to think I so dread of going work.
It's so nice to meet nice people while working. :)

Everytime I get my pay or allowance, I'll have this tendency to shop!
Oh shit I'm so afraid I'll turn into a shopaholic!
I need to save money, for my future.
And I believe this job pays me quite adequately.
But the allowance/pay everytime I get, although not everytime is alot, but still, it makes me wanna shop! I just wanna shop!
Regina, Joanne and Ashley keep asking me why am I shopping in Singapore.
But Singapore is the place I feel home, in matter of fact, it's MY home.
And when I go other countries, there isn't any "me time" where I can walk into any shop and shop till i drop.
At least I can do that in Singapore.
I can shop alone, go in any shop and get anything I want.

Shit.
I'm off tomorrow.
Shall I go shop?
My mom is so gonna kill me.


each day passes by,
i only get more and more lonely.

waitingforyou...♥ 8:07 PM

Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I miss:
-you holding my hand
-you hugging me to sleep
-lying on your shoulder when we watch movie
-sharing food and drinks with you
-partying with you
-starbucking with you
-late night supper with you
-having dessert straight after a full meal with you
-you giving me pleasant surprises
- you sending me home
-shopping with you
-jogging with you
-have small sweet bickers with you
-us camwhoring
-the goodbye hug
-your kiss
-your face
-your voice
-your care
-your warmth
-your smile when you're with me

You.

waitingforyou...♥ 1:30 AM

Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Just came back from Beijing, and my colleagues were all awesome!
Didn't snap any photos for this trip as the stay is very short and I didn't went to sight see. :(
All I did was indulge in food and massage!
Tell you, their massage is dope and most importantly, CHEAP!
And they come into your hotel room!
Nice country with nice people makes a whole lot of difference!

Going Milan next!
Tell me how broke will I be after my Milan trip?
Lol.

Life has been good so far without him.
But it can be better if he's with me.
I seriously hope April will pass faster and that I will have 2 or more Brisbane flight in the month of May! I don't mind! I just wanna go and see him!

missyouverymuch.

waitingforyou...♥ 2:01 PM

Saturday, March 12, 2011
No Michelle.
You don't have to know anything.
Stop being such a loser.
Time to grow up.
And you already said this many times.
You really should grow up.

And fuck this world.
You're living for yourself.

waitingforyou...♥ 11:13 PM

First of all, YAY to no standby call-up!
God must have loved me!
He heard my prayers!
And my baby from Brisbane loves me alot too!
Cuz he's been praying for me too!
Got an off day tomorrow before my Beijing flight on Sunday.
Gonna go comex and try to grab some good stuff.

330 training next month.
Give me all your brisbane flights people! tyvm.
People don't want to do 330 flights.
But for baby, I don't mind doing the 330 flights!
To brisbane only. tyvm.

My virgin 330 flight is to Taipei.
Although it's a short stay, still, I LOVE TAIPEI.
Told baby it's only a short stay and know what did he say?
"Never mind I can accompany you to Taipei when we're having our holidays."
SO SWEET CAN! :)

I have to love my job.
Thank you very much.

I LOVE YOU A LOT SCOTT LEE!

and i miss you alot too.

waitingforyou...♥ 12:02 AM

Wednesday, March 09, 2011
I'm off today.
With mommy.
She's on MC but still does housework.
Nevertheless, there's still someone with me through today's off day.

Got 2 days of standby.
Please pray either no call up, or call up to nice places pls.
I've done 3 turns, and am getting quite sick.

Had a ran yesterday, and it felt so good.
I would like to learn diving.
So I can go dive around and snorkel around.
But my next leave is on July, and I'm flying over to find Scott.
How to have time?
Hmmm.
Pls give me good long flights and many off days!

Gonna go have my lunch and plan whether to go shopping later!
Ciaos.

waitingforyou...♥ 12:53 PM

Monday, March 07, 2011
When your boss give you stress, you tend to not perform while working.
This is what happened to me.
Although I did the exact same flight 2 days back.
But never mind.
This flight is over.
Always look forward to the next flight.

Whenever my menses period is coming, I tend to think a lot.
Esp when after a not so good flight, I need a hug.
When I reached the airport, there was nobody I know.
Only the auntie in the toilet concerned about me when I went to change.
She kinda made my day when she asked me how am I today, and welcome back to Singapore!
That's kinda heartwarming actually.
I greeted her with a warm wide smile, and thanked her sincerely.
What warms be later was the bus driver.
When I got on the bus, he too, greeted me with "Hey xiao mei, end work already huh? You must have had a long day!"
Singapore DO have warm people like this!
That's why I always look forward to coming home, back to Singapore.

However, the sad thing is when I came back, took my key, opened my door.
There was nobody at home.
Not only was there nobody at home, my boyfriend is also not around me.
I do felt a little lonely.
Went downstairs to pack food.
The auntie knows me well, as I always buy lunch from her.
The food she cooks taste like home cooked food.

Lunched alone, watched tv alone, and went to take a nap.
When I woke up, I got a call from dad.
I was happy.
At least i slept away the lonely hours, and now awaiting my parents to come home.

Anyway I have a very sweet mom.
Who wakes up in wee hours, 3am, prepare hot milo and a piece of cake for me.
Just because I have got a flight to report for at 5am.
That's really very sweet.

I now know the importance of having your loved ones around you, by your side.
Be it your mom, dad, siblings, your other half.
It's a nice feeling to be able to see and talk to them face-to-face.
My family is coming back soon.
When is your turn?

always believe tmr will be a better day :)

waitingforyou...♥ 7:02 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2011
I don't know why, but I feel moody today.
Constantly feel like crying.
Maybe my menses are coming.
And all the emo-nemo senses are acting up.

Just realised I addressed my boss wrongly.
Feel so ashamed of myself for not double checking.
He is so gonna give me a hard time later while working.
Was called up.

I so feel like staying at home and coop myself in my blanket.
And don't care about what's happening around me.
Just for today.

Moody.
No appetite at all.
Mom bought lunch for me, and i can't even finish half of it.
Menses oh menses, please don't do that to me everytime you're about to visit me.


i just wanna run away from all these..

waitingforyou...♥ 11:59 AM

Thursday, March 03, 2011
After quite some time, I get to change to a new skin.
I think you guys should know the main reason why.
The whole skin explains why.

Yea.
Yea I'm weak.
I still can't get over it.
And I hate myself for that too.

Many people will despise me, saying it's only a short while, how come Michelle so drama?
Hey, ever thought that you're someone that relies so much on your other half for the past one year plus?
And that you meet him/her every day if possible?
You two live so near one another and you get to stay over at his/her place every now and then?
And after being so used to one another, he/she suddenly leaves you to a place which is very far away from you?
Yes, minus all the flying back to SG during holidays, it's only for a year plus.
But, a day without him, knowing he's far far away from me, doesn't help.
It doesn't help in making me happy.

Darn.
When can I stop feeling this way.
I really hate myself for being like this.

waitingforyou...♥ 12:05 PM

MICHELLE ♥
Welcome To Michelle's place.

Libran.
22.
Working.

That's all you need to know about me.


THOUGHTS ♥
Being alone can be quite a serenity.
You get things done cuz you're lonely.
You get a piece of yourself.
Have time to do your stuff.
But still, i prefer having you by my side.


Targets ♥
Earn more money.
Expand my wardrobe.
Save up.
Do well in my job.
Get a diving license.
Go dive in beautiful places.
Be more independent.
Be more healthy.
Wait for him to come back to me.


SAYS ♥
say what you wanna say.

thank you.

Runaway-s ♥
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Credits ♥
Designer: Audiee-kewgirl♥
Bascodes : kathleen
image : enakei,photobucket
Brushes : Deviantart

Flying all around the world.
Looking at the bright blue sky.
Hey! We're looking at the same sky.
Nonetheless,
I really miss you ...

Reminiscing ♥
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