Saturday, April 02, 2011
2 consecutive standbys, 2 consecutive Japan flights.
And the pattern is tough!
Quite tiring.
Was all zonked out after flight.
Had a super short stay in Seoul thou.
Managed to shop my skincare and cosmetics.
Apparels there are quite ex thou.
Another 2 days standby.
I gotta feeling I will be doing Japan flights again.
Oh no.
As days goes by, I keep telling people I'm ok, I'm alright.
But in the middle of the night, when insomnia happens to act up.
You know you can think of nothing but that.
You wish there's a reset button.
Wish time could turn back.
But reality is reality.
There's no way you can outrun it.
Many a times I asked myself, what makes me so chauvinistic when I agreed to it.
When actually I'm a coward.
On the other hand, a brighter future lies ahead given this decision.
But will the future be of any difference in Singapore?
If you were to be here, with me.
I won't be living so unfulfillable.
Yes, I visit many nice places.
Yes, my friends are always there for me.
But they has got their own friends, family, and boyfriends.
I can't hinder them much by asking their company, although I love them and would like to have their companion.
It's not your fault that you left me.
I have myself to blame for not being selfish enough to make u stay.
anyway,
you will still leave me.
waitingforyou...♥ 1:03 AM